Rainy Days [Poetry]

Pain

hello !!! i woke up early to wish my friends good luck for their exam, and now i can't fall back asleep so i hope you like this  :)) also, i may have my nanowrimo idea sO YES —

_

pain

takes over
me. falling
raindrops
go thud
and i cry
i let myself
scream
emotions
flooding me
i can't do this.

let me out,
i beg the sun
but its light
invades me
and suddenly
i feel alone
and never
truly
there.

i can hold
on, i tell
myself -
but how?
the world
is getting
distant
almost as if
i'm an
astronaut
stuck in space
get me back home

i'm tired of
floating about
in this nothingness
drifting, yelling
letting my thoughts
consume me
please
i don't have
any time to spare
don't let me be

this world is getting
way too big for me
i hear the cries
of the unfortunate
but i don't
feel pain
just numbness
maybe it
wasn't meant
to be
maybe i
wasn't meant
to see
i'm a burden

and like
wilting flowers
and broken
hearts do,
i let myself
be consumed
as i let the stars
and constellation lines
become who i am
not-thinking
unfeeling
as my whispers
say a last farewell

"goodbye, earth,
goodbye."

_

have a lovely day! this was kind of pathetic, but do leave ideas or feedback if you wish :'D

also, thank you for the support! i know i used to thank everyone individually every chapter, but i don't have the time now D: however, i really appreciate all of you! please know that I'll always be here if you want to talk :')