Rainy Days [Poetry]

Valid

this is probably a low blow but i'm tired of all this :") besides, it's not like many people i know irl read this  ?? please just pretend i made this up !!
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"your opinion isn't valid,"

you shout
over the other end of the field
and hurt washes over me
a silent monster returning
and i start running

i take a different route
i avoid you, but according to fate,
that isn't allowed
so i keep running into you
i smile, and you do too

but mine isn't genuine
it never will be
your words echo inside me
and hate starts to build up
blind, i can no longer see
reason's not my cup of tea

and patience is running thin
what gives you the right to tell me that?
maybe friendship can no longer be shared

after all, you're the one that ignored my texts
i'm the one that did the work and truly cared
i said thank you but you never said it back
so why is your opinion valid and not mine?
maybe you're a figure that's divine?

but yet again
i am human, and you are too
i'm tired of being treated
like a pushover, like old news
i just want to be accepted
not be told that to work harder

maybe i'm not good at science
math, writing, or drawing
maybe i'm not as talented
when it comes to acting

maybe i fear things
maybe i really am a coward
maybe i don't have panic attacks
but anxiety hits me too, more
that you think. so don't assume.

i want to like you,
but around you, all i feel
is an overwhelming blue

maybe i will never be accepted
maybe i will never feel love
but please, do not shove
me around - i'm tired of that

because we all have flaws,
and i do have them too
maybe they're more than they should be
but until then, do let me be

because your comments hurt
they are something i can never unsee
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have a lovely day ahead !! this is the result of me trying to stay quiet about things and i apologize. i may delete it later on! :')

anyway, don't ever tell people their opinions aren't valid. i know it may be a joke, but it really isn't funny. we all choose the words that come out of our mouths, and to say something so toxic — it just doesn't seem worth it. these things affect me a lot, and i honestly wish i could unhear them :') so yes, rant over. it's your choice in the end whether to be kind, or to spread hate! just take others' feelings into consideration - i can be too blunt with some people and it's something i want to change :D