Shawn Mendes Imagines

His Chocolate Croissant

A/N - Hey guys! Hope you like this imagine, it's going to be a bit of a short one. It was requested by brideofharrystyles. Also when indicated in the story listen to the song above, it is called 'Not ready to make nice' By the Dixie Chicks, the video above however is a cover and I have imagined that the reader would sound like that. Happy Reading.

*Chaneekia's POV*

I start strumming my guitar as I close my eyes and start singing the first few words.

*Play music here*

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying 

All these buried emotions started to resurface as I kept singing. Emotions that I had buried for many years.

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should 

A tear escaped my eye as I continued singing my heart out. Images of my mother and my childhood flashing through my mind.

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin' 
It's a sad, sad, story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over 

Goosebumps erupted all over my skin as I continued to strum the guitar, my voice full of emotion.

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

If only forgiving and forgetting was as easy as it sounds. Once I place my guitar down and stop the camera I hear a set of hands clapping from behind me. I turn around to find Shawn and Alessia Cara standing in the doorway watching me. Alessia wipes her eyes as I noticed a few tears had fallen down her cheek. Shawn sniffled as he walked over to me and engulfed me into a hug. He didn't have to say anything because I knew that he was here for me. 

Alessia walked over to me and gave me a hug as well. "You have an amazing voice, that song...it was so raw full of so much emotion..." I nodded my head and wiped the tear off my cheek.

"When I was young, my mother and I never had the best relationship. I don't talk to my mother anymore because of my childhood and what she did to me...She-" I hiccupped as my eyes began to blur.

"It's ok you don't have to tell me." Alessia hugged me tighter and let me cry on her shoulder.

"No, it's fine. It's just a little emotional for me. I haven't really talked about it in a long time. Shawn is the only one I've really told. It's just that my mother was never the best, she was always putting me down, making me feel really insecure and bad about myself. She said and did some harsh things to me. Things that I will never forget. This song reminds me of that. And sometimes I find myself thinking about the 'what ifs' and what would my life be like now if I tried to fix things with my mother. I know it isn't my fault I was young at the time. But I could make an effort now. I just don't see myself doing it. I know I want to forgive her but it's hard, and I will never forget it either." I didn't realise I was fully crying until I could taste the salt on my lips.

"It's ok" Alessia held me and let me cry. "It's ok to not be ok, and none of it is your fault. Your mother just didn't see what an amazing daughter she had. You are an amazing friend, you're always there for me when I need you. I know I can always count on you, you're a funny and caring person, always putting others before yourself. Whenever you smile and laugh it's contagious and I always find myself smiling and laughing too. You're my best friend. Shawn is extremely lucky to have you in his life. I am extremely lucky to have you in my life. Your mum is missing out and she doesn't even know it. Don't let her and what happened in the past get to you. You're strong." Alessia hugged me and rubbed my shoulder.

She got up off the couch saying she had to go because she has to do some things for her music video. Shawn replaced her spot on the couch next to me. "I love you Shawn, Alessia is so amazing, she's such a great friend"

"She is truly. I love how close you two are. It is really nice. I'm glad you have someone like her in your life. She is a genuine and true friend. Those are hard to come by." Shawn kissed my temple and held me in his arms.

"I love you Shawn. How did I get so lucky. You give really good cuddles. My cuddly husband" I giggled as Shawn tickled my sides.

"I see, that's why you love me. Because I give good cuddles and I'm attractive? Well I love you more. You are my shining star. My angel. My little chocolate croissant." Shawn kissed my neck making me giggle and blush. 

"You and your weird nicknames for me are so cute. I love it when you call me that." I giggled as Shawn kissed my nose.

"My little chocolate croissant." 

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A/n- Sorry this one was short and not that great. Anyways.

Until Next Time. Much Love.

- Jess xx