A Dying Flower | K.sj

Clearing Things

Things were going rather smooth with Seokjin and everyone. In three days, Seokjin had managed to spend a lot of his time with the others, he stayed more in the living room instead of the his bed in the Sin room, it was the place where everyone would usually gather and even if they didn't gather there, at least one or two of the members would be around to watch whatever show or drama was on the television with him.

Today, Seokjin was a little fidgety around Hoseok whom he's been watching. 

Seokjin had become a quiet and introvert person, he was rarely the one to start a conversation, it wasn't really a weird thing but when Seokjin asked Hoseok if he could privately speak with him in his room, the dancer found that a little weird.

Without saying anything, Seokjin gestured for Hoseok to sit down on his bed near him and near the small box which was also sitting there.

Hoseok could tell that Seokjin was nervous by the way he was playing with his fingers but he didn't want to make him feel even more restless so he acted normal "What is it hyung? Did Suga hyung snore too loud last night?" He laughed as he rested his hands on the bed and leaned back a little.

Seokjin chuckled softly and shook his head "Nothing like that" He looked at the box on the bed for a moment before taking it in his hands "It's just...I wanted to apologize for getting angry at you, I wasn't my self at that time. I'm really sorry for acting like that with you" He said the words sincerely and bowed down his head politely. Seokjin had thought about what he did and how aggressive he was with Hoseok, it was one of the things that kept him up at night for ever since he was back, he wasn't really able to get a healthy amount of sleep or get close to that at all. The sleep he gets would be for two hours or three at maximum however Seokjin was satisfied with that since he hasn't been having any nightmares.

"W-what? no, it's really alright, raise your head hyung you don't need to do this" Hoseok placed his hand on Seokjin's shoulder and the older slowly raised his head. 

The dancer was dumbfounded, he didn't think that Seokjin would actually come and apologize for that, he wasn't even sad or thinking about it but it seems like the same doesn't go for his hyung.

"But-"

"No buts. Anyone would've reacted the same way if in your shoes. It wasn't my place to look and I know you didn't want anyone to even look so...I should be the one apologizing..Really...I should've closed the email right away but because of me, Suga hyung got involved too and things got messy" Now it was Hoseok whose bowing his head "I'm sorry hyung. I really am" 

It was silent for a few minutes before a hand was on Hoseok's head, patting it softly as a sign for the him to raise it.

Seokjin who had a small smile on his face that didn't reach his eyes withdrew his hand after a few seconds "It's alright" 

It wasn't alright.

"You've seen that side of me.."

 'And you can't forget it now' 

"But I hope that you and Yoongi don't see me any differently...I mean as who I am and not...that or anything else" Seokjin hoped that Hoseok would understand what he meant.

"Hyung. That wasn't a side of you. It was what they forced you to do and the role you had to act to survive but now it's gone so try not to think of it, alright? Also I can never see you as anything other than my friend and family. Kim Seokjin is so valuable to me and I know you to well so there is no way I'll suddenly see you as another person" Again, Hoseok was showing his smile, the sunshine smile that does a good job in making people feel better from the positive energy it's radiating and another small smile was on Seokjin's face. The words Hoseok said made him kind of happy and relieved since he's been worried that the other saw him differently after seeing the pictures because despite being comforted countless times about a lot of things, no one could stop Seokjin mind from thinking and worrying  or wandering in his memories however remembering the words could help since the effect of knowing things was much different than not knowing them.