Next Door

Road

You have no right to study this kind of school. Your such a loser! Isa kang ulila! She pushed my back causing me to fall in the ground. It takes me a few seconds before I could moved my legs.  I was about to stood up when she attacked me again which made my head fell into the hard object.

I cried not because of pain kundi dahil naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I want to fight back cause in that way, I can defense myself but I chose not to. I'm not a kind of person na gumaganti kaya pinapa sa dios ko nalang ang lahat. I went to the rest room to cry hardly. I didn't attend my afternoon class and went home early. 

It's a bad dream. A nightmare of my past. Until now I can't even move on from my past. It's still reminded me of how my life so meaningless. How my life run with bullying, with harsh and hard people. I can't moving on. It always attack me when I'm sleeping.

Palagi nalang nangyayari sakin to. Mararamdaman ko nalang na may umaagos sa aking pisngi habang natutulog. A tears of my yesterday.

How to move on? I don't know.

How to be happy? I don't know.

Can I go back my past and make it the most memorable one? Well, I was there. I was really there but I don't think I can make it.

It was the middle of the night when I still awake. I can't force myself to sleep so decided to have a walk outside. Since it's dark for sure no one will see me.

The cold air hugging around the area resulting me to remember my jacket. I  left it inside my room. I shook my head and continue walking the road embracing the cold air that touches my skin.

It's really dark which I like the most. I can be with myself.

I bumped someone.

I rubbed my head cause it was hurt. I turned my head to someone I bumped and I just saw her back. She's rubbing her head too. I can tell that she's a girl cause she has a long hair.

She did the same turning her body to me.

"Sorry." She apologized while holding her head.

My mind was in process when I saw her face and then I realized that she was. She was the girl who caught on me. What she's doing here in this hour?

"Sorry din." I replied out of my mind.

After a couple of seconds.

"You!? What are you doing here in this hour?" She said in disbelief.

"I can't sleep" I answered simply.

"You?" I asked back.

"Uhm! I can't sleep din?" She answered me in a doubt and also with her laugh.

"Uwi kana?" I asked one more time.

She rubbed her nape while in a deep thought and a seconds later she flashed her cute smile and looked at me in my eyes.

"Di pa. Ikaw saan punta mo?" She asked me back.

"Dito lang. Maglakad-lakad muna hanggang sa antokin ako."

I answered honestly.

I looked above the sky and she did the same. What a beautiful moon. It's a small circle when you look at it behind but it's good enough to give us a light. Amazing!

I went my head down and she did as well. We're now looking to each other. She's gave me her cutest smile and so I did. That moment, I just realized that I want to ask her to stay longer but I was scared to hear her decline.

"Can I walk with you?"

She asked seriously.

My big eyes become bigger the moment I heard her words. I can't imagine myself talking to stranger. She flashed her pleading look and so I said yes.

And now she's walking beside me. We're so silent. No one will dared to talk. I walking slowly and she did the same way.

She's rubbing her nape again which makes me think that rubbing her nape gives her more confidence to ask more.

"Bakit di ka makatulog?"

She asked while her eyes looking on the road. I just turned my head to her side.

"I don't know." While staring her left side face.

I tried my best not to share my story  and of course the real story behind why I'm here.

It takes week/s or months before I trust someone. As long kaya kong itago, I will.

"Okay, if you say so. By the way I'm bea de leon."

She extended her hand for a hand shake and I started introduced myself the same way. 

"I'm jhoana Maraguinot." I smiled.

She smile heartily while we're shaking our hands and then we continue walking.

"How long have you been here?" She asked without looking at me.

"Ahm... Three years I guess?"

Making sure to sound like I'm not really sure. Like what I've said. I don't trust easily.

"Your not telling me the truth. Why?"

And that's it. She knows. Di ako nagsalita pagkatapos niya akong tanongin. I don't know what exact words to answer.

I can't find any words to talk back. I was caught off guard.

"I don't trust easily."

I turned my head away cause I'm blushing. I felt it. I was so honest this time.

"Since when that started?" She asked without looking at me

"Since when I was a child." I answered without looking at her too.

"How long will take to gain your trust?" Kung merong namamatay sa tingin siguro patay na ako ngayon. And that's exactly how she stares of me.

And in just a moment I felt interested in someone's life.

"I don't know. Time will tell." I clung my shoulder and walked fast and she did the same way.

After that long conversation we finally arrived to our different ways. We said our goodbyes and we both wave our hands.

"See you when I see you."

She said while waving.