Next Door

chapter 17

"Party party!! Shot!"

I shouted as the music beat loudly and started myself to get wild. I can feel the alcohol of my stomach, but I just want to get drunk and forget everything tonight.

"Hi beautiful lady. You're alone?" Someone asked me.

"Kasama ko girlfriend ko. Bye!" And walked away.

Alam ko na kung anong motibo nila at wala akong balak maging biktima. I just want to get drunk not to fuck someone. I cleared to myself just in case I would forget the reason why I'm here.

Shot!
Shot!
Shot!

Hanggang sa di ko na alam kung paano lumakad.

"What the heck! Lasing na nga talaga ako." And then laugh like a drunk.

"Hey! Let's go home. Common!" She held my hand and forced me to stand up. But as stupid as I am, I fell on the floor.

"Jho! Uwi na tayo. Lasing kana." Sabi niya habang pinipilit akong itinayo.

"No! No! Gusto ko pang uminom. Let me drink more, please." I said in a drunk voice making myself embarrassed to others.

"Okay. I'll let you but you need to fix yourself first, jho. You're such a messed. Please get up!"

I really feel her annoying tone which I really enjoyed tonight. I know, she's already mad. What should I do? I'm fucking drunk right now, bitch! But when I calmed myself bumalik na ako sa aking upuan at uminom ulit ng beer. Well, she could kill me with her death glare at this moment.

"Let's go, jho. Inaantok na ako." Sabi niya habang pinipigilan ang aking kamay na uminom. Itutungga ko na sana ito but, I stopped and chuckles.

"Go home! I don't need you! Pare-pareho lang kayong lahat. Walang mga kwenta! Leave me alone!"

I shouted like a messed without thinking that she would probably get hurt of my devil words. She didn't even talk back instead she threw me a surprise reaction.

"What? Sabi ko ayaw ko pang umuwi! Ano bang hindi mo maintindihan dun, huh? Dito lang ako umalis kana!"

Pagdugtong ko ng mapansin kong wala siyang balak magsalita. Sa kalasingan ko, di ko na alam kung may nasasaktan na ba sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Sa pananalita ko to be exact. But instead of firing me back she just nods her head.

"Okay. Kalma lang hindi na kita pipiliting umuwi. You can stay and get MESS any way you want."

She said making me calm by agreeing of what I want. Peru, kung kailan okay na sana, tsaka ko pa nararamdaman ang pagkahilo.

I was about to walk into the dance floor dahil gusto ko sanang sumayaw nang matumba ako sa aking inu-upuan. 

Ito ang naging buhay ko simula noong nasa Palawan kami. Simula nung makita ko ang di ko inaakalang pangyayari, nawalan ako ng gana mabuhay.

Umuwi ako mag-isa sa baguio at doon ako gumawa ng decision. Sa kalagitnaan ng paghihinagpis at pagkadurog.

Naabutan ko pa yung kapitbahay ko dun nakatingin sa aking pintoan. Na surprisa man sa di inaakalang pagkakataon, minabuti ko nalang na huwag magtanong.

Priority ko ang gumawa ng decision ng mga panahon na iyon kaya ipinagwalang bahala ko nalang.