Next Door

Chapter three

After that midnight walked and talking to a completely stranger I felt astounded to myself. Feeling free. Free from the pain of my soul. For three years of living alone that was my first time to exchanged words to someone I haven't new. 

It's new to me to had a long conversation. Usually I just nodded if I would ask by someone or I just simply agree. I really don't know why but I guess I'm slowly getting there.

I was just thinking that this might be the killing of me. Hiding from people forever. But the thought was changed when I met that girl.

My heart. My heart beats so fast. She always crossed my mind in whatever I do. I wanted to ask why but I know no one can elaborate it to me.

She brought me foods. The unexpected things to happen. That was so delicious. It's my first time to ate that kind of food since I decided to live here.

I had so many first time with her and hoping that there still a chance to have more for me to add my list.

I can cook but only the simplest one. I can settle on the simple way of cooking as long as I can eat and continue living.

I didn't ask for anything. I don't need anyone. I've survived for 15 years and that was my proof that I didn't need to have someone.

But I guess it was just 15 years. The moment I met her, I saw myself lying next to her and that made me so weird.

She's a girl and I know to myself that I'm into boy but how I would come to this feeling?

I'm not a kind of bi or even a lesbian but why do I have to feel this way? I wanted to see her but when she's around I pushed her away.

She knocked again asking to have my phone number. I wanted to give her but I chose to refuse.

Why?

I don't know.

Maybe fears still with me. Trust is my issue since then and I've never been found the right one to conquer my fears.

But this past days. I started to have losing my control.

Maybe this is the beginning.

Beginning of my new journey not only with myself but wishing with someone.

With BEA.

I'm planning to pay my water bill now to the owner where I lived. We used metro in every room we rented so it's easy for us to know how much we have used for the month.

Right after paying my bill I'll go straight to DCtech company to pay my internet connection.  

I was on the road waiting for a taxi. It's hot. The sun shine til the very end of its capacity that's why the universe is so hot.

I walked around to find a tree for me to hide myself from the sun while waiting a taxi. I wiped my sweat to my neck using my free hand when I heard a car beeping.

"Hey, wanna drive you?" I turned around.

Oh! It's Bea.

She waved her hand signaling me to enter her car.

"No thanks." I refused since I'm still annoyed by her.

"It's hot. Mangingitim ka niyan." Is she's joking o nagpapatama siya?

"I don't care!" I rolled my eyes.

"Cgi na. I'm blocking the road. Baka pagalitan ako dito." I rolled my eyes again. I walked slowly near to her car. I paused when I reach the driver seat.

Nakalabas ang ulo niya sa may bintana ng sasakyan while eyes is on me. She signaled me to sit on the passenger seat. So I walked towards the seat.

When I already settled she turn her gazed to my direction holding a bottle of water.

"Sino inaatay mo dun?" She pointed the place where I was standing using her mouth.

" No one." I reply.

"Here. Just drink." she finally offered.
I took the bottle since I'm so thirsty.

"So where are we heading now?" Her hand were on the steering wheel while her head on me.

"Sa DCtech" I answered without looking at her. Tumingin ako sa bintana at nilibot ang aking paningin.

"Naputulan ka ng internet connection?" My jaw drops and I shot her a glare but she didn't care.

"No. I paid my bill on time." I surrender. It's really hard to have a conversation to someone you just met. For me it's very uncomtable.

"Okay saan yong daan papunta dun?"
She asked but this time her eyes on the road.

"Hatid mo ko?" I asked in a surprised tone. She raised her eyebrows while turning her head to me.

"Syempre. I will be your driver today." And winks.

"Seriously?" Shocked is on me.

"Yes madam! At your service." Oh! She started annoying me. But the smile on her was really caught me. It's genuine.

I was about to slap her shoulder when I realized di pala kami close.

After that long drive we finally reached the Dctech company. I paid my bill and went home early.

We were on the road when she asked something which me think deeper.

"Ahm...can I ask?" She broke the silence inside the car while her finger tips tapping the steering wheel. She found the opportunity to ask since it was red light.

I turned my head to her gazed.

"You can. Just put a limit." And  turned my head away.

"Bat ka nagtatago?" I was caught off guard. I didn't expect that question today. I sighed heavily. The way how she used her words is really makes wanna drown by my sweat.

My mind processing her words while pressing my both thumb. This is my way to calm myself. My heart and my mind were on fighting each other whether to tell the truth or keep on hiding.