Next Door

Chapter seven

Living alone is not my thing that's what I've thought when I was a kid but unfortunately I became the one who lived on it. As much as I want to live happily God would never let me.

I know.

They said that God made a man for woman so that no one can live their life lonely. But I didn't believes that saying not until I had been proved to myself that God did.

I've never expect that I would involve myself in this kind of situation. Being close my door for anyone I didn't imagine that my door would wide open. My wall that I've been built for  years is just slowly broken.

Built as strong as stone that no one can broke but I was wrong. I was really wrong because as of now unti unti ng bumabagsak.

I don't know what she used for breaking it so well but I let it to happen maybe because I'm slowly falling from her. No! I love her.

I loved her for six long months. We exchanged our love for each other each day. I let her to breaks my wall. I let her to change my perspective in life. I let her to make another memories with me. 

I let myself to love, care by someone, to feel love and to be guarded by someone I loved.

I let myself to inspire, to be happy, to have contentment and to be secure. Because I'm madly inlove into someone. Someone that God meant for me.

To feel that you simply made for a man, to live a life that full of love and respect. 'But the love without a test wouldn't be stronger' as others define Love. 

I was sitting on the sofa waiting for bea. We have planned today to go to Palawan to spend more time for each other. 

Since bea had her dentist clinic she has been busy to showcase her service to her beloved clients.

I didn't complaining for that, because I've been supporting her since day one. I have to show her my support, my love and of course my duty as a girl friend. 

20 minutes passed but bea still not show up. I don't know why but I think something came up. I remembered some thing.

She was walking side by side while scanned all the items were displayed. She didn't found one and went to the other corner to find the cans.

She carefully scanned the items using her eyes and finally found piled of century tuna's located at her right side.

She steps twice closer when she's stopped. So I did stopped too.

She spent minute by staring someone standing where the tuna's piled. The girl who has been busy scanning the tuna where bea looking at.

I was standing at Bea's back, holding the cart that she needed. My eyes looking at them inadequately. Bea didn't move and just only blinks her eyes stil pointed to the girl.

After a minute, the girl walked away and bea just followed. I didn't move stil my eyes stares where bea standing. Hoping that she would come back but she didn't.

I made two steps backward and walked straight outside of the mall. 

I chuckles in bitterness of what I just thought when bea showed up herself in front of me. She walked towards me wearing her sweet smile. My eyes twinkles as she steps closer to me and kiss my forehead as I stood up. 

"Are you ready?" She asked as she done kissing my forehead. I nod and she just hugged me tight.

"Ready na rin ako love." She said while stil hugging on me. She unplug the hug and assisted me to sit.

"Nasaan yong mga dadalhin mo?" Probably she noticed that I didn't have my things to bring up by my side. 

"Na sa kwarto pa love. Di ko pa inilabas, baka kasi di tayo matuloy." I said as I explained my side. She laughed bitterly and bit her own lips and gaze me.

"Bakit naman di tayo matutuloy love?" She said after she gaze up on me. I flashed my smile while holding her hands and press it slowly.

"Baka kasi magbago ang isip mo." I said in a low voice without looking of her. She chuckles again which made me look at her face.

"Why would I be do that?" She asked softly. I turned my head away to not see her stares. Those stares that full of questions.

"I don't know. I just feel it." I shrug. I don't have plan to bring this thing up.
But she held my chin and tilted to her side. 

"That would never happen love.  Remember what I've told you? Di ako magsasawa na mahalin ka kasi mamahalin kita hanggang sa aking huling hininga." I nod and she kissed my nose.

"Okay?" She said further.

I nods one once again and put my head down when she grabbed it up slowly using her free hand. She kissed me on my lips.

I was expected that kiss is just a smack but I was so surprised ng tumagal ang labi niya sa labi ko. Her lips steady on mine which made me struggled. Kumurap ako ng ilang beses nang ginalaw niya ang mga ito.

She open her mouth slowly and moved like she's afraid that our lips would break apart.

Moving slowly...Until she doesn't want to stop.

We've been kiss before but not like this. So desperate to the point that I really don't know how to response.

Her kisses are one of the sweetest taste I have tasted. Her smiles that made me weak everytime she flashed it. Her scents that if I could smells it, I would even forget my name. Her stares, her longingness, her affection, her generosity and her kindness are those things that made me complete.

I could never ask for more and I'm really sure of it. She stopped when she realized that we were gasping for air. Stil our heads met each other and I could feel the desire of her eyes.

She wants more but I need to stop. I'm not ready for it. I can settle and content with a kiss but not more than that. I already told her about this and she agreed naman.

Masaya na daw siya dahil naging kami at she's very thankful because I let her para mahalin ako. She didn't ask for anything as long as kasama namin ang isat-isa.

And that's exactly what I want. Lovingly each other without any condition.