Next Door

Chapter 26

"Jhoana! Love!" I shouted as my eyes roamed around the place. I run back and forth side by side but I couldn't find her.

"Bea please calm down, she left." Jia said holding my back while I'm breathing so bad.

"No! No!" I whispered "I made a mistake jia. She saw us, right?" I asked emotionally holding my nape, shaking my head, and bending my knees while trying to evaluate everything.

"Y...yeah?" She reply hesitatingly.

"Why jia? Bakit nangyari to? Bakit ko nagawa yon?" Mangiyak-ngiyak kong tanong.

"I don't know and hindi ko alam na kayo pala." She said feeling sorry for what had happened.

"What now?" Nanghihina kong tanong but she just shaking her head slowly.

"Sorry bei pero wala akong idea." Sagot niya.

"I need to find her. I need to talk to her." I whispered like crazy one.

"Papalalain mo lang ang sitwasyon pag ginawa mo yan. Can you just calm down?" She said irritated at para bang siya pa yong galit.

"Calm down at maghihintay ako dito? Girlfriend ko yong umalis. Girlfriend ko Jia! I can't lose her. I can't!" Sigaw ko dahil baka di niya naintindihan. Sa tutoo lang ni minsan di ko akalaing hahantong sa ganito. Feeling ko bumalik yong mga pahanon na iniwan din niya ako. Ang pagkakaiba lang ako ang nagkamali ngayon.

" Look! Just breathe, okay? Don't you dare leave Maddie here!" She commanded and I scoffed.

"She's not my responsibility Jia!" I answered raising my voice.

"What?! After what you did to her yan lang sa sasabihin mo? Well, now you have!" She said while throwing her fits into the wind.

"Huminga ako ng malalim dahil sa galit na nararamdaman ko. "You know what...if you want then just do it. Samahan mo siya wala akong paki." I added at akmang aalis na sana ng magsalita siya.

"I'm not your caregiver I'm your EX." She said emphasizing the last word ex at para akong naduling sa sinabi nya.

Konti nalang talaga at mauubos ng ang pasensya ko ngunit napaisip ako sa sinabi niya. She's right. She was right. I'm not capable of loving someone. I'm just causing them the pain and heartaches and they don't deserve any of it.

"Just...leave us alone. You're not part of it." Mahinahon kong sabi.

Well, sorry for being frank this time, it's for her own good at para di na rin siya pumagitna pa sa kung anong meron kaming tatlo. Nasaktan na niya ako dati at nasaktan ko siya kaya siguro enough na yon para sa aming dalawa. I need to set boundaries between us para iwas gulo.

I booked my flight right after I left Jia. The next day, I flew back to baguio hoping and wishing that I could able to see her at the apartment, but maybe I was late...a little bit. She was gone.

I was really out of my mind that day. Di ako makapag-isip ng tama ng mga pahahong yon. Hinanap ko siya ng hinanap. Pinuntahan ko lahat ng lugar na napuntahan namin nagbabasakaling nandun siya, nag-iisip o nagpapalipas ng sakit o di kaya umiiyak.