Lisa
Asian tour was announced. We've been practicing so much for it. Days after days, all we did was to practice for our concert.
Days and it felt month for me.
We've been stuck in practice room, to YG building doing routines, vocal practices, mentoring all for preparation.
And even to break time like it's just the four of us in one room, it felt I'm alone. Not that my members are making feel so, but the atmosphere ever since that night happened changed.
It changed for how Jennie used to look at me.
Changed for how Chaeyoung always seems to feel to comfort me.
Changed for how Jisoo treated me.
I know there's an awkward barrier in between. Specially to Jennie.
Chaeyoung feels like it's her task to comfort me every single time. I thank her for that even it's not really needed.
Jisoo unnie became so extra caring. For how she checks on me after going to bed, asking if I'm okay, like an older sister that she is.
Right now, the sixteen shots choreography has been a pain for my members. The choreographer is kinda strict. She called Jisoo many times, asks Chaeyoung why she's out of the beat and point out Jennie's remarkable mistake that's too obvious to be seen. She gave us a twenty minutes break that she's expecting that after it, we can perfect it.
"Lisa......Can you?..." Jisoo asks staring at my reflection to the mirror. I smiled, putting my towel down, turning the speaker on.
Chaeyoung to the side joins in. Though Jennie is still holding her head sitting watching us.
"Unnie, you won't practice?" Chaeyoung asks her, coz I have no courage to speak to her.
We never really have a conversation when it's just the four of us.
She nodded though it's obvious that she's still exhausted. We've been dancing for a straight two hours nonstop. It explains for how tired she is.
"Give me 10 minutes." She replied drinking water from her bottle.
I didn't threw a look rather focus on teaching Jisoo unnie and Chaeyoung. Point to point, for every eight counts and finally there's a progress in it. Little by little yet more precise moves.
Jisoo unnie even commented that I'm a great dance teacher than that choreographer. I just laugh to it.
"Lisa... If it's okay. Can you teach me too?" Jennie said this time.
Jisoo and Chaeyoung suddenly said they're going to the restroom probably giving Jennie and I time to talk. Or privacy when in fact, we'll just practice.
"Sure unnie."
Jennie got it in a snap. Just a little adjustments but then less than ten minutes, her moves are clean.
We both sits to the wooden floor feeling the sweats falling down from my forehead. Ten minutes passes and the two has never got back from 'restroom'.
I could hear our audible breathing for how silence is covering the whole room.
How did we end like this? Jennie and I never got into a serious fight for years. For like three weeks without talking to each other. That fake smiles we give when someone's around. And when we're in dorm, it's like we don't know each other.
Even her and Chaeyoung are talking. They're talking like nothing happened, while to me, she's distant. We both are.
"I'm sorry." Jennie breaks the heating silence that's about to burn me in.
