Have I done more harm than healing?
My intentions my actions, emotions- can't track 'em
Is my spirit even worth keeping?
Any dream can swap places with my memories
Can I trust what I'm perceiving?
Every year the grey feels like she's here to stay
Will I outgrow her or keep feeding?
Impurities, insecurities assuring me-
Every angel has their demon
Melt-downs and toxic traits seldom love often hate
Run in circles chasing freedom
Sick of the spiral I'm dizzy and psycho
Revival of limbo repeating
Walking on triggers it took a lot of shooting myself in the foot and diving back into trauma like a book
For all of me to have a meeting
Decided not to hide my fears- couldn't live life like this
We clicked 'next' whilst surrounded by 'previous'
The culture said "we move" and did, you got a problem you should keep your grievance
Opposites attract I'm surrounded by healers
I parked by the flat back when there were no meters and
Dug for strength to start from scratch like a foetus
Come and get half of your act it's in pieces
You stay on your phone because that's where your peace is
Cracking a seamless smile
I'm too used to beeps and dials
I can't even shoot you a text, you leave me on blue and on read
Man I swear my heart can't do this again
Always choosing between losing you or my head
Either way I know I'd be a fool if I did
Babygirl you way too rude but you lit
So imma kneel one time in a pew cah I said
I'm tryna see this through to the end
Said you wanna take it slow
I'll be with you every step
Values done switched up from calls I ain't picked up
Missed em like I missed love still stuck in the mist of
Foggy memories but you my clear skies
Opened up then locked down like Tier 5
Couldn't wipe no tears I was a ghost before I started feeling dead
Heart broke before I started feeling dread
It's a pattern
Tryna slow my breathing, I've- taken to tapping
Spending time inside my mind, no- pen I've been mapping-
Just got back and since I've navigated labyrinths
I've had a sense of who I am when I'm not me
Taken some time in the hotseat
Cah who's got me like I've got me?
