An actress life (Jensen Ackles x Reader)

Chapter 32

3 years later... (2016)
You had a lot of trouble to get used to JJ, well mostly you, because most of the time you were alone. Jensen was filming you weren't mad at him, but he came home every weekend or every time he got off. JJ never cried that much, she was sleeping in, just the first two months were exhausting, but you survived.

Your mom and sister helped a lot, when Jensen was gone. You're thankful for that, Jensen's parents also visited you often, every Thursday, to be specific.

You ate breakfast or lunch, it depended when they came. The first few months were hard, with Jensen gone most of the time, but Gen helped you the most. You practically lived together when the boys were gone, she stayed with you or you stayed with her.

She supported you a lot, in everything. You even got a part in a movie, it was just possible because of a lot of support. JJ is going in kindergarten and loves drawing, frozen, the colour pink and tea parties.

But not everything has been great the last few months...

Jensen is at home for almost 3 months now, because he will direct some episodes in season 11. He has been busy and planning a lot, you didn't talk much and it hurts, he's your husband. But you never wanted to fight in front of JJ, because she doesn't deserve to be in the middle of this.

He really is just sitting in front of the computer and sometimes he doesn't even come to bed, he sleeps on the couch.

You're sitting in a cafe with Gen, JJ, Tom and Shep. "Honey what's wrong? You seem so tired and powerless." "It's fine, just some stress at home." you give her a weak smile. "Spit it." she insists on telling her. You roll your eyes, "It's-since Jensen is home, it's weird." "What do you mean weird?" she says while shifting Shep on her lap.

"I thought it's nice to have him home." she adds. "It was-is, it was in the beginning. The last two months haven't been that nice as it seemed.-" you let out a sigh and shift JJ on your lap "-Gen, he-we don't really talk. Maybe just 'good morning' or 'lunch or dinner is ready' that is everything we're talking. Most of the time he doesn't even come to bed and prefers sleeping on the couch.-" you take a deep breath to keep yourself from crying "Gen it's nearly 2 months ago that we kissed or that he touched me." you say and you feel a tear rolling down your cheek, wiping it away immediately.

She gives you an apologetic look and smile. "I'm sorry, honey." "No, it's fine." you say and wipe the other tears away. "Does he act normal around JJ?"

"Mommy can we go home?" JJ interrupts you and looks at you. "Bug can Mommy and me talk for a bit more?" She nods, "Thank you JJ." you say and kiss her cheek as you tickle her side slightly, she giggles.

She gets off your lap, "Mommy can you give me my draw book?" "Yes baby." you grab your bag and take out her staves and book. You give it to her and she takes a seat at the table on a chair.

"So does he act normal around JJ?" Gen asks me. "Most of the times yes, she's his little princess." you say as you ruffle her hair and she smiles brightly at you.

"But he also gets annoyed by her if she asks him to play with her. Sometimes when I do the laundry and I cannot play with her, she asks him. Most of the times he refuses or gets annoyed and raises his voice slightly." you give Gen a weak smile.

"I really don't know what is happening, if I'm being a bad wife or if he's being a jerk. Maybe he's just stressed, but why isn't he talking to me, that's what I don't understand."
"You should really talk to him."

"Gen I tried it one time. He said, he will try to find some time, but he hasn't changed anything." "What about I take JJ with me today and you can talk to your husband?" she asks while taking your hand and rubbing it slightly.

As you suddenly have the feeling to throw up and run into the restroom. You finish and walk back to your table. "Sorry, I think I ate something, that I shouldn't have eaten. I'd like to take the offer and talk to my 'husband'. JJ what do you think about having a sleepover with auntie Gen, uncle Jared, Tom and Shep?" her eyes lighten up.

"I would love to!" she exclaims. you kneel down on her level and she puts her arms around your neck to hug you. "But we need to get home and get your stuff." "I still have clothes of JJ, because of the sleepover from last time." Gen says.

"So you can head home and finally talk to that asshole." she says and mouthes 'asshole', you laugh slightly. You pay, leave and walk to your cars. You give her JJ's child's seat and give her a hug. "Call me or come over, if you wanna talk." she says. "I will, thank you." you say.

You look at your phone as you get into the car and look at the date, 'oh shit', you think to yourself. I'm over the date. You didn't notice it last month and not even this month like last time with JJ.

You face palm yourself and start the engine. You drive to a drug store and get a pregnancy test, maybe if you're pregnant he will finally listen.

-time skip at home-
You open the door and put your keys into the bowl. "Hey." he says, while you walk into the kitchen, not looking up from his papers or computer.

"Hey." you say dully and walk upstairs.
"Where's JJ?" he asks as you stay on the first stair. "She's having a sleepover with Tom and Shep." you say and continue walking upstairs. "Okay." you hear him quietly say.

You walk into the bathroom and make the test. A few minutes later you look at it to see, it's positive. You wash your hands and take the test as you open the door to walk back downstairs. 'You got this. You have no reason to be afraid.' You keep saying to yourself. "Jensen?" No answer. "Jensen?" you say more loudly. "I can't right now, y/n."

You scoff, "Right, you can't since two months Jensen." you say lightly raising you voice and he looks up for the first time. "What do you want, can't you see I'm busy." he says while leaning himself against the back of the chair.

You laugh humourlessly, "You're busy for two months now!" you yell already annoyed. "You're not even looking at me or even worse sleeping with your wife in one bed." you question mark 'wife' with your fingers and point at the rings on your left hand.

"I have no nerves and time for fighting." he says and begins working again. "I'm talking to you!" You yell at him while closing his laptop.
"Hey!" He yells at you while standing up and the chair falls over. "I was working!"

You begin to laugh, "You asshole have been working for the last 2 months! You didn't kiss or touch me Jensen! You prefer sleeping on the couch then in bed?! With your wife?! You're not realizing how bad you make me feeling!"

"I said, I have no time for that!" he yells while throwing the mug, that you gave him for your anniversary last year, against the wall. You see the mug break and look shocked and hurt at him.

"The you don't have the time for this." you say while slamming the pregnancy test on the table and choke on a sob. You walk into the hallway, take your keys and purse and put your shoes on as fast as possible. You hear him call for you, but you slam the door shut behind you.