A Fallen Starr

Chapter 9: Sinister Thoughts

 A piece of my heart was torn away from me and he didn't even need it. Every night, I keep convincing myself that he would always be under the same sky I was gazing at, on the same ground as mine, wishing upon the same star as I did.

If only I know, I would never leave him. Still, I would never forget the divine serenade of every touch that you left broken in my heart. Where do I have to place all of this sadness when all of I can think of is your smile? 

I regret all of it.

Even with half of my life, I would never forget you and all of our memories. 

I didn't even look at the gaze. Didn't even make a sound. The once an angel became the very demon for my soul. The very fire that lit my heart faded away, like burning candles on a windy night.

As the gravity pulls me down, my legs betray me and I fell onto the ground. But it didn't even feel like falling. Rather, it felt like floating up to the sky.

Only the sky was filled with vicious thunderstorms and furious lightning.

I can feel the tears in my eyes, from holding too tight. The wrenching heart was almost too much to handle as it aches in agony. That three words shatter my heart like a mirror fallen onto hard concrete. It cracks into thousands of bitter shards that can never be put back into one piece again.

Irreversible.

Crushing, forming a dead heart.

A cold heart.  Icy and frozen.

Beautiful.

But dangerous.

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Ryder's POV

I've been wondering about what would happen if I didn't meet Adam that night. The very night that saved my life and brought me into the world that I came to know today. He was the one that put his faith in me, gambling on me. Somehow, that night was meant to be the very last night of my life, became the very best night that I've ever experienced.

"That would be all, thank you class." Ms. Helena's announcement wakes me from my thought as all of the students picked up their belongings and starting to leave the lecture hall.

"Hey, Ryder. I've been wondering if you could help me with this assignment that I've been working on. It's about gamma radiation that will be exposed to mice and we will dissect the mice to observe if the radiation would sterile them." I look at him in the eyes, amazed and terrified at the same time.

"It's a collaboration with the biology group. You can join if you're interested."

"Thank you Alex. But I do want to have children one day, preferably without extra toes." I start to pack my bags after Alex give me a nod.

It's a project that needs to be done by every student. I supposed to do the project with Adam. The only thing is, Adam's absence just seems to take a toll on me too.

It's been four days since Adam went away with Elle. I only visit every evening just to make sure everything's alright and according to plan. She was not joking when she said the first few day's gonna be tough. Adam's been improving but still begging us to give him anything that could satisfy him.

"Ryder? Will you come to my office after this? I have something to tell you." Her eyes travel back forth between me and Alex.

Intrigued, I ask. "With all due respect Miss, why can't you just tell me now?"

Her eyes dart down to the floor, avoiding my eye contact. "I'm sorry but I'm afraid that it's private." She whispers.

"Okay then."