You're ok - Todobaku

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TW Throwing up/bulimia, Anorexia, Trauma mentions

Todoroki's POV
(This takes place right went Bakugo comes to see todo for lunch)

I woke up to someone shaking me. I felt like I only just fell asleep minutes ago but I still opened my eyes to see Bakugo. He sees that I'm awake and stands up because he was crouching down at my level beforehand. I sat up and he went over to the kitchen area and went through some of the food. "What do you wanna eat?" At the mention of food, I just couldn't answer and fidgeted with my hands while looking down.

I felt hands on my cheeks, forcing me to look up at him. "If you don't eat now then you have to eat later." I didn't want to eat but I knew it would make him happy so I agreed to eat now. He nodded and went to make us both sandwiches. He came over and handed me the sandwich and I ate it quickly in hopes that eating it fast will give me no other chance to think about what I'm eating. Well, that didn't work. Immediately after finishing I regretted it and hated myself for eating it.

Throw it up. What? I said, throw it up. This thought had never crossed my mind before but it sounded so easy. So I complied. I went to the bathroom and crouched over the toilet and shoved two fingers down my throat, causing me to throw to the sandwich up. I coughed and flushed it down. I washed my mouth out, attempting to get rid of the horrible taste before going out to Bakugo and trying to act happy. We cuddled for a bit afterward before he had to go back to class. He kissed me on the forehead and left.

Time skip (still todo's POV)

At about 3:15, Bakugo came in and threw his backpack on his desk, grabbed whatever homework was in there, and came over to me. I was just laying in bed playing on my phone so I put it to the side and sat up. He had two of each sheet and there were only 2 sheets each between us. It must have been a pretty calm day." I said since we usually had much more work. "Yeah, I guess." he responded and began to explain what we did that day.

Time skip - next day (they just cuddled and did homework the rest of the night)

The next day I went back to class with Bakugo. I did my normal routine. I woke up and Bakugo dragged me down to breakfast. I knew I had to eat to make him happy so I ate some cereal and a shitty energy bar and then just threw it up 10 minutes later when I was back in my room. I knew what I was doing was bad but it was taking over. Lying and doing such destructive behaviors behind his back almost made me satisfied.

I went back to my dorm, brushed my teeth, took a shower, grabbed my shit, and went to class with Bakugo. I walked in and saw Iida getting up, probably to ask about yesterday. "Are you feeling better today Todoroki? What happened yesterday?" I knew it. "Uh, yeah, I'm feeling better, it was nothing." I responded. Lies. He nodded and went back to his seat. I went to my seat and decided to listen to my music. Music was one of the only things that kept me sane nowadays. My music was a mix of many different genres. Most of it was just sad music. I don't know why I listen to it, but it almost calms me and reminds me that so many other people go through stuff similar to me. 

I put on a playlist and it was mostly just a sad lofi mix. I just sat in my seat and thought about whatever I do anymore. I let my thoughts stumble around and tried to keep my mind off of Bakugo because I know what that could lead to. I focused on the music and before I knew it, most people had come in and the class was about to start. I but my phone away and tried to focus on the class. I guess Aizawa was doing something similar to yesterday because he was just talking and not after questions. 

After a while, I decided I would just zone out again. I let my mind wander and looked around to room until my eyes landed on Bakugo. He knows how to keep me calm, he's forceful but not too much, he's hot, he's handsome, and I might even say cute at times but I know that he would probably deny the last one. Surprisingly the voices aren't there and it's peaceful.