You're ok - Todobaku

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TW Eating disorders, Mentions of self-harm, Mentions of drug use, Depressive thoughts

Todorokis POV

I swing my book bag over my shoulder, walking out of Recovery Girls room and down the hall. She told me that one of the teachers that was free at the moment would be out soon to drive me to the ward. I don't really know which teacher would be available or even be willing to drive a student to a psych ward but we'll see who it is. I walk out of UA, deciding to sit on a bench not too far from the building. I sit down and start going through the bag that Katsuki apparently packed for me.

I open it up and the first thing I see is Kat, the stuffed bear that Katsuki got me about a month ago. I take him out, setting him to the side and rummaging through the rest of my bag. There were mostly just clothes, most of them being long-sleeved shirts or pants. The other things in the bag included my necklace with my promise ring on it, my phone with its charger and headphones, and a small note slipped in at the bottom.

I take the note and unfold it. "Dear Shoto. I'm sorry I never noticed what was happening with you. I thought you were fine, I thought you were getting better but apparently I was wrong. I'm going to miss you but I'll see how often I can visit and I'll stay in contact the best I can. I hope the stuff I packed you is enough. I hope you get better soon, I love you. -Katsuki" I read over the note a few more times, letting his words sink in and feeling guilt wash over me.

I soon hear the door to UA opening and footsteps coming my way. I quickly fold the note back up and look up to see the person. It's All Might. He has a sad look on his face as he makes his way over to me, stopping a few steps from the bench I'm sat at. He doesn't say anything and I take it that he's going to be the one driving me. I pack everything back up into my bag and get up. All Might starts walking and I follow behind him, exiting the UA property and going down the street a bit, soon stopping at a car.

He takes his keys from his pocket, unlocking the car and getting in. I get in after him, sitting in the backseat with my bag. We're soon driving to the ward and I take out my phone. I text two people, Fuyumi and Kiku. I tell them what's happening, just giving a brief summary with the conclusion that I'm going to a psych ward and they might not hear from me for a while. I turn on some music and stare out the window.

Finally, the realization of what's happening hits me like a truck. I'm not going to have any of the things that make me happy. I won't have Katsuki, I won't be able to cut or smoke, and I probably won't have my phone so I can't listen to music. I try not to panic, just trying to focus on my music. This place will probably kill me. They'll make me eat, I won't have anything good, and knowing my luck, I'll probably be the only boy there. I'll probably just be an outcast like always.

I just focus on the lyrics playing from my earbuds and staring at the trees we're passing. After a while, we turn to a big building and the car is stopped. I clench my teeth, slowly getting out of the car and walking up to the entrance with All Might. I turn my music off, trying not to be rude as we slowly walk in the building. We head in and I just stand there awkwardly while All Might talks with the nurse at the front desk.

I don't listen much to the conversation (because I'm too anxious and my thoughts are all over the place) but soon two other people come in and tell me to come with them. I say goodbye to All Might and follow the two new nurses. I'm placed in a room and the give me one of those hospital bracelets that are hard to get off and start asking me some questions. They already have the basics of what happened and why I'm here and after the questions, they said that they're going to put me in the part of the ward with the few patients with eating disorders.

One of them then brought me to a small room with a scale. I bite my lip as they take my height and weight. My weight was 109.8. I then went to talk with a nutritionist. We talked about what food I like and we set a goal weight for me of 135 pounds. Then, I'm moved to a different room now. It's a little bit bigger and looks like a semi-average bedroom. There's a bed, a dresser, and a nightstand.