You Were My Love

Scene 119 - Arms

Hello everyone!

Snowfalls in my place are so heavy that homes are out of power, water, can't have food... some people got killed under falling trees! :'o((

It also wrecked the internet : I have been out of connection for days T-T

I had to use friends' connection and another pad to finally be able to post this chapter!

I tried to make this scene worth it all!

I hope that you are safe and comfortable where you live, wherever it is...

Sending lots of love

Laety KC

                 

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They say love is blind.

Yeah, right.

Why didn't they rather say that love is DUMB?!

He was smiling but it was a bitter smile, and it soon faded.

He flipped his phone screen down - he just couldn't stand the sight for longer.

Now Tae Hyung was absolutely sure of it...

Looking at the photos on his smartphone, there couldn't be any more doubt about it.

What a difference those terrible months made...

There was no comparison between now and then...

And his decision to quit dancing - without rebeling even for a single second...

How could he even tolerate it?

Giving up on his dearest, oldest, most intimate passion ever ... his second self...

It must have hardly been bearable to him...

Yet he never complained.

But his eyes... his eyes told everything...

The bottomless sadness they sometimes let show...

Tae bit his inner cheek.

His fists clenched tightly as he struggled to prevent himself from letting the refrained frustration and the terrible anger out...

He could see it all in just those two pictures....

The soft, plump cheeks were turning hollow.

The beautiful pouty pink lips had paled.

So had his previously rosy skin.

The handsome jaw line was turning into jutting bones.

His once twinkling eyes were now dull and circled in dark.

His well-toned abs had lost their definition as his belly went flatter, ribs starting to bulge out.

His collar bones did too.

And his arms...

Gosh! It sent shivers down his spine in horror as he realized, from looking at those two pictures, that the slender yet muscular arms Jimin displayed just mere months ago had now turned into fragile-looking twigs...

Jimin was slowly letting himself die...

Little by little killing himself ... silently...

Thinner and thinner.

Starving himself out of despair.

Getting more and more depressed at his wrecked love life...

Why did he put himself under so much insufferable pain?

Why didn't he just QUIT? End their "couple"?

How on Earth had he coped with the hellish agony of seeing his love marry another one - a woman on top of it all?!!

And now ... a baby girl...

The last deadly stab in his angel's innocent heart.

That proved, if needs be, that he had put on with all these years of intolerable crucifixions for nothing...

Not the slightest hope at all...

Even though Jimin had said a countless number of times that it was OK.

That he understood.

That Hae Wong still loved him.

That I was just a matter of time.

That he just had to bear with it all a little longer -  just a little longer, until Hae Wong met his professional needs and pleased his high-ranked father's demands.

Tae Hyung huffed in rage.

In all those words, he mostly heard echoes of Hae Wong's justifications and it drove the student totally mad.

How could Jimin not see that the blond bastard was leading him astray?

That he was playing him?

How did Jimin still love him despite it all??

That damned egoistic sucker just wanted control.

He couldn't still be loving him.

No, not that way.

This was all really just about being territorial...

About keeping to himself what he considered as his, and not about loving and caring for a dear one!

That bloody jerk just wanted to protect his career and his fucking very comfortable little life!

And his innocent, pure-hearted Jimin had to pay for it...

Despite the spiritual and physical pain it caused him.

And the endless excuses and pretexts that he made up for the one who was supposed to be "his man" ...

Couldn't he see that it was just dust thrown in his eyes?!

In spite of all of this, his body couldn't lie...

And his ever fading smile showed it all.

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Worst thing in that header pic is that I didn't even tamper with it... :''o((

I'm glad (and hope) these terrible days belong to the past ...

Please, take care of your precious self  - you are beautiful just the way you are,

you are perfect being your OWN version of you!

         

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Please look forward to the next chapter

Scene 120

Astray