Stay Or Sing

Chapter 20 - We're Okay

Rissa's Pov

"Justy, I love you but would you just listen. Jase was trying to say that I'm here!" I say exasperated.

I see Justin's face change from a look of worry to surprise and shock. I missed him so much! I can't help but rush towards him, hugging him tightly. It takes him a few seconds during which, he seems to be frozen in shock, until he snaps out of it returning my embrace.

I stand there embracing him for the first time in days, when I feel his tears drop on my shoulder. Justin, has never been the person to cry. Yet here he is.

I hug him tighter, if that's even possible. "Ris, I'm so so happy you're okay. I was so freaking worried that something happened to you," he says softly.  "Justin, I'm okay. I'm here. I'm so sorry for worrying you and stressing you out. I just needed some time to myself to think about everything," I sat apologetically. I feel so horrible for making him worry like this.

He sighs, "But Ris, where were you? Why didn't you just come to me? You know I'm here for you right? I'll always have your back, no matter what!" I smile and reach up wiping away the few stray tears before pulling him into another hug. "I know that you're always there for me Justin, and I'm always there for you too! I couldn't stay here or with you because I knew I'd run into Jase and at the time I was just too hurt," I say softly.

"It's fine I understand you. But how did all of this happen? Where were you? When did you get back? Is everything okay between you two now? Are you okay now?" he asks concerned.

I quickly explain what happened, that I was at Hayden's place and how Jase found me and that we're okay now.

"I should've known that you went to Hayden's! God I'm an idiot! Wait didn't Jase phone him?" he thinks aloud. I nod sheepishly, "Yeah I sort of asked him to lie to you guys for me."

It's only then that I look around and realize that we've been standing there and talking for ages. I can't see Jase anywhere, he must've gone to the room. And wait, "Justin? Where's Lexi?" I ask confused.

His eyes widen, "Shoot! I told her I was coming here to get Jase to come help us look for you! She's probably still stressed out! Shit! Okay I'm going to go and call her, I'll be right back," he says walking out of the room, pulling his phone out.

Jase must be in the room, I think as I turn around and walk towards our bedroom.

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Jase's pov

"I couldn't stay here or with you because I knew I'd run into Jase and at the time I was just too hurt" those are the words that I heard Rissa tell Justin. I feel so bad. How could I have done that to her?

Here I am, going on about how much I love her and how she's my princess yet I'm the one who hurt her!

"What kind of a boyfriend am I?" I mutter in frustration to myself. My head in my hands as I'm sitting on my side of our bed.

"What?" I hear her ask. I turn around quickly and sure enough Rissa is standing by the doorway gazing at me with a confused but concerned look. I never even hear her enter.

"I-" I trail of, not even knowing what to say. I know that we already had this conversation and I know I've already told her sorry but it just doesn't seem like it's enough. I acted like a complete idiot, a jerk and I know that I can never take back what I said and how much I hurt her, but I wish I could so so much. I wish I could just go back and take back everything from that day, every word I said, ever tear she cried. I wish I could just make it all better.

Before I even realize it I see that Rissa is standing in front of me, having made her way towards me while I was lost in thought. "Hey? Jason, what's going on? Why do you look so... What happened?" she asks, her voice laced with worry.

I stand up and pull her into my arms, hugging her tightly as I feel her arms wrap around me too. I feel her rest her head on my chest and I can't help the sigh, I still can't believe that I could hurt someone so loving and amazing.

"Rissa, I'm so sorry. I love you so much, princess," I say softly. I feel her pull away slightly and I look down to see her looking up at me again with curious eyes. "Jason, I love you too but what are you talking about? Why are you sorry? What happened?"

"I'm sorry for everything I did and said to you, Ris. You deserve so much more than that, so much more than an selfish boyfriend who made you cry," I say softly. It's true, Rissa is honestly one of the sweetest, most genuine people I've ever known. She deserves everything good in the world and me? I don't deserve her.

"Jase, we went through all this already at Hayden's house. I know that you're sorry, stop feeling guilty. I'm okay," she tries saying comfortingly. "Rissa, I heard you talking to Justin. I know you were hurt and I can't bear the thought that I'm the one that caused you that pain. I'm the one who hurt you, and for that I am honestly so sorry," I say regretfully.

She reaches for my hand, giving it a light comforting squeeze."I was hoping that you wouldn't hear that. I didn't want to make you feel guilty. Jason, the thing is, honestly it did hurt. Being away from you hurt because I love you so much. Yes all that happened and yes you said some things that I agree, weren't the nicest and most supportive but at the end of the day you realized what you did wrong and we made up. We talked it out and don't sell yourself short babe, I understand what you went through with T-her must have in nfluenced all of this a little bit and as long as it never happens again, I forgive you. Honestly, I think I forgave you before I even saw you yesterday! I love you Jason Carter, and it's okay. We're okay," she says before leaning up to kiss me.

I happily comply with her wish and pull her closer to me, connecting or lips.

We're okay