His Queen: The Beginning

Chapter 12

Lutang si Ash matapos ang nangyari kanina. Hindi niya alam kung bakit pero kusa nalang bumilis ang tibok ng puso niya at halos hindi siya makahinga ng haplusin ng lapastangang' lalaki ang talukap ng kanyang mga mata.

Fuck! What's wrong with me? And why did you fvckin' palpitate so damn fast, heart? Bullshit! i shouldn't let him get near me again! Ugh!

Pabaling baling sa kanyang kama at hinahanap ang komportableng posisyon. Ngunit naikot niya na ng buong kama, aligaga pa rin siya at gising ang diwa.

Mariin niyang ipinikit ang mata at sinimulang kalmahin ang sarili dahil nagsisimula nanaman siyang mainis. Damn! What's wrong with me? Tanong ng isip niya
Napakagat labi siya at inis na tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga sa kanyang kama.

Nang tignan niya kung anong oras na, lalo lang siyang nainis at napamura. 3:57 na at wala pa rin siyang maayos na tulog. Kung hindi siya nagkakamali, alas-diyes y media umalis ang lapastangang' lalaki sa bahay  nila. At kung tama ang kalkulasyon niya, mag-lilimang oras na siyang gising at pilit kimukuha ang antok niya.

Crap! Inis na inikot niya ang mga mata at linapitan ang drawer niya. Kumuha siya doon ng limang stick ng isang Japanese Cigarette at lighter bago nagpunta sa balkonahe ng kanyang silid.

Maginaw sa labas kayat napa-haplos siya sa kanyang magkabilang braso. Sumandal siya sa railings ng balkonahe at sinimulang humithit ng sigarilyo.

Lingid sa kaalaman ng kanyang mga magulang, lalo na ang Anpa niya ang tungkol sa paninigarilyo niya at iba pang delikadong gawain niya. Madalas kasing wala ito sa bahay kung kaya't hindi niya alam ang mga ganitong gawain ni Ash.
Simula ng ma-expose siya sa mga karumal-dumal na bagay at mapasok sa mundong ginagalawan niya ngayon, maraming bagay na ang naranasan niya. Sa mura niyang edad, natutunan niya ang bagay na hindi niya dapat matutunan. Hindi pag-pasok sa klase, pag-inom ng alak, paninigarilyo, pagsusunog ng pera, sugal, at pagpatay ng tao para sa pansariling katuwaan. She was a barbarous and rebel type of teen; a beast indeed, not until she met Zen. 

Zen have a big and deep effect on her that's why she change herself. She renew herself and tried to be a goodgirl to please the latter. She cut all those inhumane act and ties of her. She washed her hands as if she didn't do something horrible. 

But the guy knew her well. He didn't want her change herself instead, he wants her to love herself. 'How can you love me if you didn't know how to love yourself?' Zen ask her when she confessed what she's feeling towards him. She felt so dejected. But the guy promised her that he'll reciprocate her love for him if she love herself first.

So she did. She go back to school, she's still doing her vices but moderately. Little by little, she's lessening the alcohol she's taking, the cigarettes' stick she's sipping, she's now declining the gamble offers, and she's starting to control her killings.

A month or two, they end up in a relationship together. Even though she didn't fully polished on how to love herself, the guy took his promise. 'Now, you're starting to love yourself, huh? I like it. Just continue it, and when you love yourself more, then it's the time you can say you love me.'

Since she had a trouble on controlling her killings, Zen introduce her the organization he's in. She's shocked, of course. The organization got no name nor title on it, but he said it is well-known in the UnderWorld. It is a organization where people/clients can hire a trained Assassins or killers to finish someone or assassinate people for them. Whether for good or for bad, they'll kill without hesitation. But in exchange of money, ofcourse.

Even Zen holds the highest rank on this organization, and he recommend her; that doesn't mean that she'll not work hard. She started on the lowest position before she came up where she is now; a feared and well-known Assassin that no one would dare to bump with.