The Homeless Santa

The Homeless Santa Chapter Eleven: What's Left

"How can you not care about that anymore Nicholas?...you're freedom, you have no idea what it would be like when it's taken away from you...IF it's taken away from you." Kit spoke out shaking her head as she got a bit closer towards him while Nicholas lowered his head, shaking it as he added.

"Desire, Kit ...every single day I have to live with what's happened... my wife...my child they both died and I was one of the leading causes of it.s-"

"Nicholas you didn't drive WILLINGLY under the influence." Desire stated as Nicholas shook his head as he added.

"I WAS a drug addict DESIRE...don't you think I should have pieced together that I had been drugged?..but I didn't ....and my wife was tired from driving all over the place, I was...I was just trying to be a good husband...I could have even walked home if I really wanted too ...but no, I just ...I had to have her come pick me up ..." 

"...Nicholas.." Kit spoke out with concern, as Nicholas shook his head and added.

"I DIDN'T ...notice it ...I didn't even notice the signs of being drugged, all I remember was driving and then waking up being arrested ...being told I was in some kind of a car accident ... my freedom was taken away from me, but what was worse?..my wife was dead and so was my son..I SHOULD HAVE NEVER been driving, to begin with, I SHOULD have come up with some other way .... i...if I did they would have still been..."

"....." Desire and Kit were both silent lowering their heads a bit, while Nicholas kept his head low a bit as he shook it.

".....Freedom being taken away from me?..... I...I knew it was coming before the trial even started I knew it was coming, why do you think I RAN AWAY and found this place?" Nicholas asked angrily and tearfully, while Kit shook her head as she added.

"I know that, and Nicholas you've HONESTLY become one of my best friends- I can't imagine you going away for something you didn't do!"

"BUT I DID do it, I DROVE the car Kit ....unless you're saying that my wife switched places with me when I fell asleep and crashed the car then switched places again and died, THAT'S JUST AN IMPOSSIBLE thing to say HAPPENED differently! SO EVEN if my best friend lied to me, drugged me and wanted me to get a divorce from my wife, ALRIGHT fine..but you know what a jury is going to say?... HE HAD a history of drug abuse, he should have seen the signs he was drugged...he should have been able to stop it- he WANTED to be drugged and he didn't think it would kill his wife and son, or HE DID and he just didn't CARE... EVEN if we get WHOEVER did this to admit to it, doesn't mean anything- the evidence SUGGESTS I KILLED them!" Nicholas tearfully screamed as he shook his head and added.

".....I'm only biding my time until I am found out until I am taken away by police officers...I've made my peace with it Desire...Kit ...there's no going back from what happened, there's no ... happy ending for me here... so if you want to keep looking into the night my wife and child died, fine...whatever...it's not going to change anything, it's not going to change the outcome here... I'm either going to be sent to prison to DIE of being beaten to death, or DIE of old age...this is just how it's .."