Suck it and see

train -part2-

Abby moaned quietly and opened one eye when suddenly the train came to stop.  She looked confused at Alex who also woke up.
 It couldn't have been the next stop.
 Abby was still cuddled against Alex's shoulder, breathing in his aftershave, or what was left of it.
 Her arm was over his belly and he had his around her shoulders.
 "What's going on?" he asked with a rough and sleepy voice that made him even more sexy.
 Abby shrugged "I also just woke up" she whispered but their question got answered by a voice from speakers in the train, telling the passengers that 'due to technical problems' the journey would be forced to have a break, they apologised and said that the board restaurant was still opened and a snack could be taken there while they were waiting.
 "Technical problems?" Alex repeated
 "Probably a try of suicide" she said quietly "They never say that someone tried to kill himself, it's allways some technical failure..." she aded "Well...isn't that sad...that they rather tell us a lie than saying how it is, someone tried to kill him or herself and instead of facing this fact and the reasons for it, we rather just try to pretend it never happened..."

Alex noded slowely "I wonder how it might feel..." "What?" she looked at him
 "How it feels to you know, to die..." he answered quietly.
 She thought for a moment, then looked at her hands "I once thought I would die...I was sixteen or so...it's a complicated story, but I thought I would drown. It was a strange but somehow...good feeling, actually the first shock got replaced by calmness pretty soon and in the end you accept it. I mean I wasn't planning this, and I wouldn't... it was an accident...I'm sorry I think that's the last thing you want to hear from me right now..." she said quietly and looked out of the window, only seing darkness. He simply kept his arm around her. How longer they were spending time, she just more and more became a even bigger mystery to him.
 "I have a friend...we know since school, and he....he's suicidal. I try my best to be there for him, so he has someone, so he knows I care about him a lot. He moved to the US and I feel bad because I can't help him in the way he would need. We often speak on the phone, do skype, but I can't even give him a hug or drink a beer together when he feels down...you know what I mean. It's just...every time my phone rings and I don't know the number, I fear that someone calls me, telling me he killed himself" he then said barely hearable, he had no idea why he said it out loud, he never told this anyone. She looked into his brown eyes "I'm sure he knows how much you care. From what I've seen today you're hell of a good person" she said with a softness in her voice that he hadn't heared before.
 Alex sighed, maybe he kept this conversation going because it was already late, and he simply tired, maybe because she was actually listening to him, because she was not hyped by the fact that he was singer in a famous band, for her, he was the 'bandguy-Alex' and even though they literally just met, he felt like he could talk about his whole life with her, and she would keep all the secrets and stories he would reveal to her.
 "I'm sorry...that's probably not what you'd like to hear now..."
 "Don't say that! I'll listen. Promise."
 Alex smiled a little at her  but he got interrupted by the sound of an ambulance getting near and soon they also saw the blue and red lights coming closer and driving by, to the front of the train. She was right, no tecnical problems.
 Both did not want to speak after knowing for sure that someone wanted to kill himself.
 They kept silent and it felt as if the whole train was not breathing.

 "Do you have battery on your phone? And good music?" she asked after some moments that felt like a lifetime.
 He checked his phone "Not enough to play music I'm afraid...and by the way, you wouldn't believe me how many people tell me on a daily basis how awful my taste in music is.." he answered and managed to make her smile.
 "Sorry, I can't believe you on this...but music would have been nice. My phone died some hours ago..."
 "What a shame..."
 "Damn...we have to keep talking with each other..or try to sleep" he joked and made her smile more.
 "Hmm...I could read out boring stuff to you that I have to learn for a test on monday..."
 "What test?" he asked interested and sat up a little more when she bowed down to her bag and pulled out a small book and a pen.
 "Hamlet" he read out loud.
 "Yes...well my professor is a little Shakespeare fanboy"
 "What are you studying?"
 "You think I'm boring when I tell you!"
 He raised one eyebrow "You really think I could concider you as boring??!"
 She had to laugh.
 "Well actually I'm studying art and art history, but I took a course of english literature, and well have a test on monday about Shakespeare and his plays"
 "Can I confess, that the last time I had to do with Shakespear was in school...and...really I did not really like it"
 Abby faked to suck in a sharp breath "How dare you, Alexander Turner! You uncultivated swine!!"
 Alex had to laugh "Please don't cut off my head, I think that's what they would have done back then in the elizabethan age..."
 "Alright, but you have to help me learn this stuff now, that we'll be longer here in the train!"
 She said and fished some papers out of her bag and handed them to Alex.
 "It has been always a mystery to me how women manage to get everything in their bags"
 "Women-secret" she grinnen.
 He noded and took a look at the papers "Wow...that's pretty advanced stuff isn't it?"
 She sighed "Pretty much, but it's really interesting in fact and beautiful, I like Shakespeare a lot"
 "Let's see maybe you'll manage to make a Shakespeare fanboy out of me this night"
 "And in return I'll become an arctic stripper fangirl?"
 Alex smirked and hid it with the paper, reading out the first question, which she answered correct of course.

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i got the idea about the suicide before, but when I asked a friend to give me a random word to work into it, her word fitted pretty well, it was drowning.

if anyone has a good word (can be anything) and want to have it as a theme in the next part, just comment or message me, I love to put other peoples 'random words' in it. Or if you have any requests, let me know (also for one shots etc.) :)
 xx

won't be very active till next week probably, much to do aaaaand I'll go to a Mando Diao concert on friday *__* with a good friend :)