Hidden secrets

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The next few chapters will probably have a lot of flashbacks.
China

"Listen, I care about you Karan." I started off, "but I want to make my friendship with Cameron work and I can't be friends with you while doing that." I signed.

"You really think that you and Cameron can be just friends?" He snickered.

"I would like to find out." I sighed.

"I'm sorry." He said softly.

"For?"

"I'm partly to blame for everything that has happened."

"Don't flatter yourself." I snickered, "You weren't addicted to drugs, Alcohol and sex. You didn't fuck your boyfriends best friend." I shrugged.

"Um.. he wasn't my boyfriend but I did fuck my best friends girlfriend." He added on.

"Kar!" I snapped. He was starting to irritate me and I knew he could tell and he backed off a little.

"Sorry." He mumbled, "I guess I'll respect that you want your friendship to work with Cameron. Just be careful, okay? He's always loved you but he's also not afraid to hurt you." He explained.

"I know. I figured that out with every rumor or something true that goes around. Something's that I told him were very very personal." I sighed.

"I'm sorry. Maybe one day we can all hang out as friends but until that time comes make sure to do what makes you happy before anything else." Kar slightly smiled at me. Kar gave me an air hug before leaving the room. I heard him quietly say hi to someone in the hallway. I heard the groans and the disgust in the voice to know exactly who it was. She came rolling her eyes in my doorway.

"Nice to see you today, Dove." I smirked.

"I don't have time for your bullshit." She sighed and threw her hands on her hips. Still dramatic as ever.

"You can always leave." I shrugged. Pissing her off has always amused me.

"No, I want to hear your lame ass apology." She chuckled.

"And I want to hear yours."  I snapped back. She raised her eyebrows at me and that's when I knew she was not expecting that answer.

"Excuse me?" She giggled, "Apologize to you? That's funny. What should I apologize for?"

"For being a complete and total bitch the last two years." I simply replied. I hung up a few of my clothes before she could say anything.

"What makes you think that you have the right to talk to me this way?" She giggled some more.

"You've talked to me this way for the last two years. Somebody should talk to you this way." I crossed my arms, "if I apologize. You're going to apologize." I spat out. She didn't like the idea but you could definitely see that she was thinking about it or something.

"We could take turns telling each other what we want the other to apologize for and why they did it." Dove suggested, "but it still doesn't mean we will ever be friends."

"Deal."

"I would like you to apologize for how you acted after I took you to get an abortion and why you acted that way." Dove smiled. The abortion was a touchy subject. If it wasn't a grown mans baby I probably would have never thought of it. Disney Kid? I wouldn't have cared.

"How do you feel? Dove asked. I was pissed at myself. I was sad. I didnt want to be here and I don't want to be near Dove.

"Can you stop fucking talking for one minute?" I spat out.

"China, I'm just trying to help." She said sadly.

"I don't need your help. All your doing is bitching!" I huffed. I tried to keep the tears from coming out.

"Listen, I know you're going through a lot-"

"You shouldn't have let me leave with him. You shouldn't have let me get that abortion. Your a fucking terrible person." I yelled at her. Dove stopped walking and she looked at me in disbelief.

"You ungrateful bitch. I've done nothing but be there for you." She sighed. "What is it going to take for you to stop blaming all of your problems on me?" She asked.

"I'm sorry." I said softly remembering that time always hurt. "I snapped at you and said awful things to you because that was the only way I knew how to cope. I made a life changing decision that I wish I never have to do again." I sighed, "I'm sorry, Dove." I said sadly, "I hope you never have to do that either."

"Apology accepted." She said quietly, "Your turn."

"I want you to apologize for the bus incident." I said quietly.

I sat down on the bus to go home when a stupid jock sat down next to me.

"May I help you?" I spat out.

"I've always thought you were cute so I wanted to sit next to you." He flashed a smile at me.

"I've never seen you before." I groaned.

"I've seen you, though." He shrugged.

"That's cool. Take my picture or get the fuck away from." I spat out.

"Hold on girl. I was just trying to compliment you. I think you're beautiful. I think your lips are gorgeous. I think you sing out of this-"

"You think my lips are gorgeous?" I raised my eyebrows

"Oh. You caught that part huh?" He smirked.

"If you think my lips are so gorgeous then kiss them." I shrugged.

"What?"

"Kiss. Them." I chuckled. He cuffed my face and he pulled me in for a kiss. It wasn't long before he started to get touchy and I got uncomfortable. His hand started to slide up my dress.

"Don't put your hand there." I pushed his hand away but he still managed to find its way back up there before I pushed him away.

"What the fuck?" He groaned.

"I said no!"

"Damn. You're not as easy as Dove made you out to be." He chuckled, "Later." He rolled his eyes.

She stared at me for a minute before anyone broke silence.

"I'm sorry, China. I know that out of all the things I did that was the cruelest. I guess I just wanted guys to use you since you slept with Thomas." She sighed.

"I didn't sleep with Thomas." I chuckled. "Who told you that?"