Hidden secrets

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China

"So, Its slowly coming back?" Cameron asked. Over the course of two weeks my vision started to slowly creep back. Sophie got arrested and is spending the next six months in Jail for Not yet adults.. you know? Juvenile Detention centers. Cameron stopped by with Boo and Brielle.

"Yeah, im started to make out the freckles on your face." I giggled. I could see enough to know he was smiling a little.

"What about D2?"

"Oh I'm going! I just can't do shit until all of my vision comes back." I explained. I could hear Boo and Bri giggling in the background.

"I think they're secretly dating." Cameron whispered in my ear. I stood up facing Boo and Bri

"Bri. I love you but I need to speak to Booboo and Cameron alone." I gulped. I could slightly see her smile disappear.

"Oh okay. Can I come back?" She questioned.

"Yeah, in about 5 minutes." I shrugged.

"Okay!" She cheered and skipped to the door, "I'll go get us coffee."

"Why'd you kick her out?" Boo questioned.

"Are you two dating?" I asked.

"Chi! I told you what I thought in confidence!" Cameron spoke up.

"Hush child. Are you Boo?"

"Do you want me to be honest? Even if this gets awkward?" Boo asked.

"Yes." I simply replied. He took a deep breath.

"I always thought you and I would eventually get together but Cameron is back in your life and I know you two aren't going to be a thing but I can never compete with him. I always tried to deny my feelings for bri but I can't anymore." He explained.

"Well..." Cameron started off.

"Don't you dare say you're going to head out." I giggled, "and Boo.. I wish you would have told me but I think you and Bri would be good together. Shoot your shot."

"You think so?" He asked.

"Of course." I smiled.

"Well.. Alright. I guess I'll go find her." He nervously giggled, "Chi?" He stopped.

"Yeah?"

"I love you. You're the greatest friend I've ever had."

"I love you, Boo. Go get your girl." I chuckled. I heard him walk out the door and I could feel Cameron staring at me.

"So..." I started off.

"I love Brenna." Cameron spat out. My heart always sinks when he says that but now.. I'm fully aware.

"I know." I simply replied, "and I respect that.."

"I don't want you to think that my feelings ever disappeared from you." He quietly said.

"It kinda feels that way. I went back to school this week and I know you did your best to avoid me." I shrugged, "but I'm used to it."

"China.. it's complicated."

"Okay, Let me make it easy for you. I don't want to be your secret friend. You either want to work on this friendship with me or you don't. I spent the last two years getting hell from you and your friends. One kinda fucked up my vision. Don't waste my time.. either you want to be friends or get out and we just won't speak during D2"

"You really wouldn't speak to me?" He sadly questioned.

"I went two years without speaking to you. I think I'll be fine." I chuckled and shrugged.

"I just need time." He stood up quickly and paced around.

"Listen, I don't want a relationship. I just want our friendship back but Jesus! Tell me if you don't want that." I begged.

"Just give me time to think about it." Cameron pleaded.

"No. Get out. I'll see you in a few weeks." I coldly replied.

"China.."

"GET OUT!" I yelled and pushed him back. I turned around to keep him from seeing me cry only for him to grab my arm and pull me into a bear hug.

"I'm sorry." He whispered, "I didn't come here to upset you." He whispered in my ear.

"I feel like that's  exactly what you wanted to do." I pushed him away, "You let me believe you wanted to start over. Completely fucking over." I sighed and walked slowly to my bottom cabinet.

"What are you doing?" He groaned

"It's none of your concern." I said quietly. I bent down and grabbed the alcohol multiple times. When I finally grabbed it I opened it. I stood up really fast and almost lost my balance chugging the whole bottle.

"CHINA! WHAT THE FUCK?" Cameron ran to me and snatched the bottle out of my hand. "I thought you didn't do this anymore." He groaned.

"I did it a few weeks ago. Seems to help me cope. Right freckles?" I chuckled, "Give me back the alcohol and get the fuck out." I huffed.

"Chi, come on. We can go to a therapist. Let me help you."

"We're not friends. I don't and I will never need your help." I coldly replied. Boo and Bri walked in right as I said that. They were giggly and all over each other but their smiles dropped when they saw Cameron had alcohol in his hand.

"You gave her alcohol?" Bri groaned and rushed to me.

"No! I took the alcohol away from her." Cameron sighed, "Please tell me what I should do."

"I don't need your help." I spat out. "GET OUT!" I screamed.

"What the hell happened?" Boo asked.

"All I said was I wanted our friendship to go at a slow pace." Cameron said quietly. All I could do was chuckle.

"Give me the alcohol back. I'm tired of his bullshit." I groaned.

"China." Bri helped me up, "Lets go upstairs." She whispered.