Hidden secrets

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Flashback

"You wanted to talk?" Cameron asked. He hasn't said much to me since he walked in on Thomas and I.

"Can we give this a shot?" I blurted out

"I can't trust you, Chi. You're out of control." Cameron sighed.

"I'm really not though." I crossed my arms, "What the fuck are you trying to say?"

"That I don't have any interest in being with you until you get your life together."

"My life is together!" I snapped and tried to pull him closer

"Stop." He groaned

"I've changed Cam! I want to be with you." I yelled. Cameron looked at me but didn't say anything. "Please." I begged.

"No more partying.. no more drugs or drinking?" He asked.

"I promise." I said softly. Cameron came up to me and slowly kissed me.

"I'm all yours China Anne." He smiled. I couldn't help but jump in his arms and give him a thousand kisses. Chloe had walked in right when I was doing that.

"Whoa.. need some condoms?" She chuckled.

"I'll take every one you have." I giggled and Cameron ended up punching me in the shoulder.

"Wait. What?" She giggled, "This is finally a thing?" She asked.

"It damn sure is." Cameron twirled me around.

"HOLY SHIT!" CHLOE YELLED! "SOPH! KAR!" Chloe ran down the hall, "THEY'RE OFFICIAL THEY'RE NO LONGER FUCK BUDDIES." she yelled.

"Oh gosh." I blushed and covered my face. Cameron started to giggle and pull me in for a bear hug.

"Do you have to leave?" He whispered.

"It's only two weeks and it's a short film." I smiled at him and kissed his cheek, "I'll be back before you know it."

Two weeks later

I don't know how to tell Cam. I partied. I did drugs. I kissed another dude when I was drunk and I don't know how to tell him. He's going to break up with me. Kar walked in on me overthinking and he sat down to cheer me up.

"I don't know what to do." I whispered and looked at him. Kar looked at me for a minute before we slammed our lips together. I wasn't thinking about Cameron when I should've been. I wasn't thinking about Cameron when Kar took my pants off and unbuttoned his. I wasn't thinking about Cameron until I heard his voice crack when he was at the door and said 'What the fuck'

"Shit!" Kar yelled.

"Cameron!" I yelled as we heard him exit the house. I quickly got dressed and started bawling. I'm so stupid. I ran out of the house and caught up to him and Chloe.

"Cameron! Please stop." I begged. He turned around and his eyes were already so red and puffy.

"Tell her, Chi." Cameron coldly said, "Tell her about Thomas at her party." He spat out. I looked at Chloe and I saw the anger and hurt in her eyes.

"Chloe I'm sorry." I cried. "Cameron.. I know you're mad but-"

"Fuck you." Cameron interrupted.

"No, Cameron I love you!" I kept crying. I knew I fucked up.

"No you don't. I've done nothing but love you since I met you and you have fucked me over so much. You were about to fuck my best friend!" He yelled, "Get your stuff out of that house. I'm done. Chloe is done. Sophie is done. And if Kar wants to remain friends with me then he's done with you. Maybe one day you will learn, Chi. Stupid Fucking Whore." He yelled.

I watched him walk away and I couldn't do anything about it. My heart broke knowing I broke his. Truthfully, all I wanted was Cameron but I needed help. As I was cleaning my stuff out of that house I had decided that I wanted to get my shit together. Cameron might not talk to me anymore but I'm doing it for him.. hoping one day he'll give me another chance. I walked into the house and dropped my stuff once I entered the front door.

"China?" Dad asked. "What's wrong?"

"Daddy.." I sobbed, "I made a horrible mistake and I know what I'm about to tell you will change the way you look at me forever." I cried. Dad sat me down and I told him everything. First party. First drug. First alcoholic drink. The razor blades. The older guys. The sneaking out. Getting arrested. Cameron. He couldn't look at me all he did was book a plane ticket to Atlanta and put me in rehab. I was there for 6 months and I made friends with people who almost went through the same thing. I didn't have the desire to drink or party anymore. My whole mind was on Cameron. Once my 6 months were up it was hard to say goodbye but I knew I was well.  While I was waiting for my family my manager came instead

"Dad isn't picking me up?" I asked.

"Chi.." he sighed, "he gave me this and it's yours to read. I'm sorry." He smiled sadly. I opened the letter and my heart sunk.

To China,

When you told me everything I have never been so ashamed in my entire life. I don't believe you can change so therefore, you are cut off from this family until you are 18. I'm sorry I have to do this and I'm sorry this note is short. The house in LA is all yours. I'm only doing what's best for you and I will always love you. Goodbye for now. Dad.

I was on my own. I went back to LA with No friends. No family. I called Cameron so many times but he never picked up. I went to his house and knocked so many times and when he didn't answer I was done trying. Maybe one day. As I was walking home I ran into Boo and Bri.. They were always together.

"China!" Boo pulled me in for a bear hug, "I just wanted to let you know that I know everything but I will always be here." He whispered in my ear.