Conall Wolf

3) The truth

"What do you mean it's not a she?" Faolán asks hesitant. He knows well enough what Conall means, but he never saw it happening.

Conall looks around scared. He doesn't want anyone to know, he is weird enough he doesn't want people to have another reason to maybe pick on him, Even though no one does it. Conall then stands up, and drags Faolán with him to a corner where no one sees them. When he is sure that no one can see them he turns to Faolán and he looks guilty, guilty that he never told it earlier to him. "I like boys Faolán..."

Faolán stares at him for a while but then a big grin appears on his mouth. Then he whispers proud "I knew it, it's Katsumi isn't it?"

"W-what? How do you know?" Conall says in disbelief.

"Conall it's obvious. Everyone in the school loves you, you are one of the most popular guys in the school and you never, I repeat never, fell in love with one of your admires. You could just randomly pick one and that person would love you, and yet you did not. You never looked at girls as I did, but I saw that look in your eyes once. You did that once before and that was when Katsumi came to our house that summer." Faolán says, proud that he discovered it. Conall looks at his hands.

"D-do you find m-me weird?" He says scared.

"What! No of course not, you're my brother. How can I ever find you weird? I just find it really awesome! So how is it between you at Kat?"

Conall gets a bit more excited because of Faolán his enthusiasm, but when he asks his question the smile fades as quick as it came and he sighs. "I don't know..."

"What do you mean I don't know?"

"The summer he came over for the last time I realised I like him, like in a romantic way. But after that week our contact went less and less. I'm scared I just made it clear to him that I love him, I just got the feeling I scared him away... the letters we sent went less and less and this summer we didn't even meet. I'm just scared to see him again, I'm scared I screwed it and he doesn't wanna be friends anymore Lán." Conall tears up a bit. The idea spooked in his head for a long time but he never wanted to believe it, but because he said it out loud it hits him really hard. The tears just come really high and he is trying so hard to not show it.

"Oh Conall..." Faolán pulls him in a tight hug and they stand there for a while, and Faolán goes through Conall his hair to comfort him. "-it's okay."

"It's just... you know... we are going to Hogwarts, to him. I don't wanna be so close to him for a whole year and yet we are further apart then we have ever been."

"Con... you are making conclusions from nothing. You don't know anything of what Kat is feeling for you. You can't decide that out of the amount of contact you guys had over the years. He has a busy live with making exams and being with his friends, and you had that as well. You have to remember he had is exams last year, and you guys had a hand full of friends at school where you need to hang out with. You can't base your idea on the amount of time someone has to spend. And this summer you guys were really busy, and it just didn't came around because of the full moon remember?" Conalls pulls himself back out of the hug and looks at Faolán with a few tears rolling down. He removes them with the sleeve of his uniform.

"T-thenks. Maybe you are right, maybe I just need to wait when I see him at Hogwarts." Conall says, a bit more confident.

"And will you tell him how you feel?"

"I don't know if I dare to do that... but I will try, okay?"

"Trying is good enough for me, but you need to promise me one thing.-" Conall looks up from what Faolán is saying. "-You have to tell mom and dad about this."

Conall nods in agreement and then he goes with his sleeve over his cheek one more time, making sure all the tears are gone so people won't see he just cried. "W-we should head back, Rose is probably looking for you"

The brothers give each other a vague smile and they walk away form their corner and join Roselyn and Thierry.

The whole ride they were just talking with each other and joking around. One moment Conall saw Brigitte walking up on him again, he says to the others that he will be back in a moment and he stands up walking up to Brigitte. Brigitte smiles bright but Conall doesn't great it back.

"Brigitte listen, I know you like me, and I know you want a relation with me. I mean you are trying that for almost three years and it's kind of bothering me. I don't love you, and I never will because I love someone else. Do you understand?" Conall says confident. No stumbling, no doubt. He knows what is thinks and he stays to that idea. Brigittes happy face turns into a hurtful face. She starts to tear up and then she runs away to Léonie. When Conall turns to go back to the others he sees that everyone in the carriage is looking at him. He thought at first that they would disgust him for being so rude, but one boy in the corner does his thumbs up and when he looks closer at the faces of the others he sees only smiles and kind nods. With this good feeling Conall then turns back to his friends and walks up to them.

"That was... intense" Thierry says, while chuckling. Conall grins back and sits down, taking his playing cards.

"I just don't want this year to be ruined by girls going  after me." Conall says serious and he plays a new card.

"Are serious? Girls are going after you for years, and I don't think that british girls have a different point of view on boys then french girls. So be prepared for more on Hogwarts." Roselyn says serious. Faolán in the meanwhile is only grinning bright. He is the only one now that knows he likes boys, because Conall wasn't ready yet to also tell it to Roselyn and Thierry.

"But no one stands a chance to come even close to Conall, right little brother?" Faolán says teasingly. Right on that moment he plays a card which is in disadvantage for Conall and Conall rolls his eyes.

"I think you forgot the meaning of our names little wolf." Conall can play a card over his card which gets Faolán into even more trouble.

Faolán throws away his cards angrily because Conall outsmarted him. "That's not fair!"

Everyone starts to laugh about the scene until a voice says "look! We are here!"

Everyone runs to the windows and they can see Hogwarts appearing in the distance. It is standing in a valley surrounded with huge mountains. Next to the castle you can see a huge lake and then we haven't even talked about the castle itself. The castle is just looking stunning and Conall looks amazed at it. It was always his dream to go to Hogwarts, but when he got rejected to join the school he just came into a black tunnel. He couldn't believe it that he had no chance of going to Hogwarts. Luckily he got accepted on Beauxbatons where he met his amazing friends and had a really good life. And he met Katsumi at Beauxbatons, and he has no idea if he would grow close to Kat if he was at Hogwarts, because Katsumi is after all one year younger.