Look For Me || Luke Hemmings

Chapter 6

Lauren's P.O.V.

I really can't believe I'm doing this. Sending my composition over to Ms. Redolph's office, this is embarrassing. Rachel and Jaimee were actually glad that I'm doing this. I've never really had confidence in myself to show people my works, but I guess it's now or never at all.

I arrived at school an hour early so I could submit this without people noticing. Amy was home sick today so it was just Rachel, Jaimee and I.

My hands were shaking while my hand was on the office door knob. I'm afraid of letting Ms. Redolph seeing this song since I have never shared any of these, not to anyone at all.

Once I had the courage, I entered the room. She was there, doing papers while she had her glasses on. I coughed so she would know I was inside since I was afraid to speak up.

"Oh Lauren, nice to see  you." She says, placing folders in their respective drawers.

"Good morning ma'am." I said, keeping my composure.

"What brings you by the office?" She asks, taking a seat and asking me for a seat.  I did accept her offer so I sat down shuffling through my bag looking for the envelope.

"I was going to pass a song I wrote..." I said, with each word getting weaker and weaker.

I handed the envelope as she examined it. She doesn't look at all disappointed, she was actually smiling. Not the reaction I was looking out for, but that works.

"How lovely dear, thank you." She says, slipping it in her drawer with a few important files. "You're one of the first to submit your work. Since you're lucky, I'll let you in on a little secret." She leans in closer to my ear as I gulped in nervousness. "It's for One Direction." She whispered.

After that I just rushed out of the office, quickly running into Rachel and Jaimee. I was out of breath since I was in a rush to find them.

"Jaimee's right." I said, in between my gasps for air.

"What?" They reacted.

"Yeah it is for - for One Direction." I said breathing heavily.

Out of no where they hugged me tight, feeling proud of my accomplishment. I guess I would be proud to, but honestly I'm scared and terrified.

We went to our seperate classes. And each class my worry kept rising and building like I don't know what will be the outcome of my decision.

What if they don't like it? What if they laugh? I just don't want the humiliation that comes along with it. It's better if I didn't- no shut up. Be proud of yourself c'mon...

My head aches and by the time lunch period came, I just headed over to the clinic to ask for a slip. I seriously just wanted to leave at the moment. I don't need these thoughts in my mind if all it does is screw me up.

Once the nurse signs my slip I'm on my way out. I lied to her about having a car so she wouldn't be suspicious. Not everything I told her was a lie, my head actually hurt and I can't concentrate. All I'm hoping for is that mom doesn't ask why I'm home in the middle of lunch time.

When I arrived home, the car wasn't there. Thankfully mom isn't here.

With every step I took inside I kept hearing a conversation.

"You know it's not her fault!"

"Well if she wasn't so stupid then she woldn't have had that happen!"

"You don't know a single thing about that day!"

"And I assume you do? You were a coward Amy don't fucking deny it!"