Wicked Love 3 (Kyle Kuzma)

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Wednesday, February 17th, 2021

Ariana 💕

I'm back in the studio again. I literally couldn't wait for All-Star Weekend to hurry up so I could get back. Over the course of All-Star weekend, as you guys saw, me and Kyle got into a small disagreement. Regarding relationships and all.

As soon as we got back in L.A., I was back in the studio. I was just...in a little bit of distress with the whole relationship mess. I'm doing good right now. We're doing good right now. I think the last thing I need is for shit to go south, you know what I mean? There's just so much going on and I need to focus.

So after the disagreement, I wrote some lyrics to convey how I was feeling. Hopefully Kyle wouldn't take it the wrong way, but I just wanted him to understand that we're good. We don't need a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship to solidify that. Co-parenting is just fine.

Orlando gave me the thumbs up once I got settled into the booth. I sat in the high chair with the lyrics in front of me, listening to the music in my headphones. Kyle had walked in with Violet as soon as I started singing. He sat her down on the couch and stood beside Keith.

I book myself tables
At all the best restaurants, then eat alone
I buy myself fast cars
Just so I can drive them real fuckin' slow
I like my own company
Company, I don't need it
I'm not always cold
I'm just good on my own, so good on my own

I've always been told, one day, I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

I look him dead on the eye as I sing the next part, using my arms as a form of physical communication.

'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I already got everything I need
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I already done everything I dream
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing

I make myself up
Just to dance in the mirror when I'm at home
I pose and take pictures
Then send them to people that I don't know
I like getting compliments
Compliments how I'm feeling, oh
I'm not always selfish
Just bad at romance, it's not in my bones

I've always been told, one day, I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

'Cause I already got a good thing with me (good thing with me)
Yeah, I already got everything I need (everything I need)
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing with me (good thing with me)
Yeah, I already done everything I dream (everything I dream)
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing

I've always been told, one day, I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

'Cause I already got a good thing with me (oh, good thing with me)
Yeah, I already got everything I need (everything I need, yeah)
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me (no, no)
'Cause I already got a good thing with me (good thing with me)
Yeah, I already done everything I dream (everything, yeah)
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing

When I finished singing, the guys clapped. I couldn't read the look on Kyle's face, but I knew a look like that could mean many things. And I was bound to be bombarded with questions after I stepped foot out of that studio.

The car ride back to my place was completely silent. Almost like Kyle didn't want to talk to me. I didn't mind though, I really didn't feel like talking.

10 minutes would go by before Kyle finally says something. "I like the song."

I look out the window. "You don't sound like it."

"I'm a little disappointed that it was about me, but I understand that you get your emotions out better through song. So I'm not mad about it." He said, driving with his left hand.

Well...shit.

"That's very reassuring." I mumble.

"It was good Ari, seriously." He stressed.

Now I feel a little guilty because I kind of just told him I don't need him....through my song. But I do, obviously. I couldn't have made it this far without him.

I sigh. "I just need a little more time."

He looks at me, then back at the road. "I feel like I came off a little pushy during the All-Star break. That's my fault."

"It's fine." I say and purse my lips.

Another kid did sound convincing, but I'm on the brink of my career. I may have just started, but there's so much I've done in such a short amount of time.

I look over at Kyle. He was chewing on his thumb nail as he focused on the road. I grab his free hand, stopping him from biting his nail and taking his eyes off the road.

"I don't know if you're aware, but we just got over a pandemic." I exclaim in sarcasm.

He chuckled, looking down at his hand in mine. I let his hand go, only for him to reach over and grab my hand again.

"Hold it. You know I focus better when one hand is occupied." He said, lacing his fingers through mine. I just nod, placing our hands into my lap.

This moment alone was very contradicting to my song, but he understands that there's no rush.

That we'll cross that bridge when we get there.