luke was all over Michael's mind. his touch, his laugh, his eyes, everything. luke made Michael forget all that's happened to him, all he's been through, but Michael's scared.
he's scared luke will leave, or hurt him. he's scared luke will want Michael to tell him all about his past. he can't even tell his therapist everything.
Ashton tells Michael he likes luke and Calum, he says they'll be good for him, but Michael can't believe him. but he wants to, he tries to.
"Michael? did you hear me?" Ashton questioned Michael.
Michael looked at Ashton, "um no, what were you saying?"
"I invited luke and Calum over for dinner, is that alright?"
Michael gulped, luke? over for dinner? sure he wanted to see luke again, but each minute he spends with luke he falls more and more.
"s-sure, why not?" Michael nervously smiled.
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Michael ruffled his hair, looking at himself in his body mirror with just his boxers on. all the scars and bruises that covered Michael's body made him cringe, he just wanted them gone, but it's gonna take more than a few weeks.
"Michael! hurry up! they're here!"
"shit," Michael muttered to himself, quickly pulling on a pair of black skinny jeans and random over-sized tee shirt, he didn't realize it had short sleeves till he reached the bottom of the stairs.
but it was already too late, luke and Calum were already staring at him with wide eyes.
Michael felt tears build up in his eyes as he ran upstairs quickly, shutting his door behind him, sliding down to the door.
"stupid," Michael whispered, tears falling down his face onto his shirt.
Michael's breath hitched when he heard luke call his name softly behind his door, knocking slightly.
"o-one moment," Michael said shakily, but luke already opened the door before Michael had a chance to change his shirt.
"Michael, there's no need to be ashamed in front of me. I don't know the story to those scars, bruises, but I won't question you."
Michael sighed and sat on the edge of his bed, playing with the hem on his jeans, wishing luke would've never seen his arms. luke hasn't seen half of his body.
luke sat next to Michael, placing his hand on Michael's inner thigh, "don't cry."
"sorry," Michael said quietly.
"hey," luke said to Michael, setting his index finger under Michael's chin, turning his head towards him, "don't be sorry, you have nothing to be sorry about."
Michael nodded sadly and looked away from Luke's bright blue eyes, "I just didn't want you to see them."
"why?"
"they're so u-ugly," Michael stuttered.
"no they're not Mikey, not to me, I think you're beautiful-" luke stopped, realizing what he was saying, then continued feeling confident, "I think you're beautiful Michael, I don't care about those scars, they're your past right?"
Michael nodded, a light blush on his cheeks. he stood up, walking towards his closet and slipping his shirt off leaving luke to see Michael's back, which looked like it had been beaten with a bat.
luke stood up and walked behind Michael, softly running his fingertips over every inch of Michael's back, even over the healed, yet visible scars on his shoulders.
Michael's body shivered, and suddenly had the chills from Luke's touch, he felt like he couldn't breath.
Luke's hand traveled down Michael's hips, and luke couldn't stop thinking how cute they were. how cute his little belly is, even though all the things Michael wanted gone were visible. luke saw right passed them.
Michael turned around and took a deep breath, staring into Luke's blue eyes, wishing his were bright. like they used to be. Michael watched as luke leaned in closer, and closer till he couldn't anymore. they could feel each others hot breaths.
but Michael turner away when he felt Luke's cold lip ring touch his lips, "I'm s-sorry I can't."
luke frowned, "why?"
"I'm not ready," Michael said before walking out of the room, he wasn't ready, but he sure as hell wanted to kiss luke.
luke furrowed his eyebrows and literally swore to himself on his way down to the kitchen, he should've known Michael wouldn't kiss him, but he just wanted to feel his lips on his so badly. he wanted to see how it felt, if he really liked Michael in that way, even though he's certain he is.
"so, where were you guys?" Ashton asked when luke came down.
luke looked at Michael, he swore Michael didn't have a shirt on when he left the room, but he might've took one of Ashton's shirts since it hangs so lose on his body.
"bathroom," luke replied.
"I was getting a shirt out of your room ash," Michael replied, but it seemed like neither Calum or ashton bought it, but ashton gave Calum a 'drop it' look.
dinner was, awkward. Michael and luke kept exchanging quick looks, every now and then, accidentally touching knees. Calum and Ashton kept talking about Annabelle, the movie they saw.
"so luke," Ashton said, "how was the movie you guys saw?"
luke swallowed his food, "um great, it was a great movie, Michael?"
"hmm? oh yeah, great."
"okay, Ashton told me to leave it alone but why are you two acting so awkward?" Calum asked concerned.
luke shrugged with a smile, "we're not, see?"
luke swung his arm around Michael's shoulders, softly, and smiled at him in awe when his face turned red.
"we're fine, just our first time hanging out?"
"it's not though," Calum replied, "at the movies?"
"he means like, at the movies you don't really talk and now since we're here we don't know what to talk about," Michael said for luke.
luke smiled and nodded, "yep," he unwrapped his arm around Michael and set his hand on Michael's inner thigh again, making his face even redder.
Calum nodded, chuckling lightly when ashton have him a death glare, he can never take anything seriously.
"movie after dinner?" Ashton asked the boys with a smile, who all just nodded, "Michael, what movie do you wanna watch?"
"um, is stand by me good?"
Calum and luke nodded, "I love that movie," Calum replied helping ashton clean up the kitchen.
Calum and Ashton sat at different ends of the big couch, while Michael and luke sat very close on the little couch, eyes glazing at the tv.
luke suddenly shifted to where Michael was laying on Luke's arm, head on his chest, and all Michael could think was how did I end up like this?
luke smiled and looked down at Michael, he couldn't help but play with his fluffy cream colored hair. he twirled his hair through his fingers, watching as a smirk was plastered on Michael's face.
Calum and Ashton couldn't help but watch the two. Calum thought it was cute, so did ashton, a little. he didn't want luke to be like the last.
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I tried to make this update longer
