Just You - Finn Wolfhard x Reader

18. Just A Dream

I'm sitting in the classroom. Millie and Gaten are on my sides and Finn is on the end, glaring at me with anger and disgust.
What did I do?
Strange.
I don't remember this happening.
This must be a dream, or a memory.
The class continues on and I actually know the answers to the questions Mrs. Carson asks. Then, as I'm about to answer another, Finn stands up and starts to yell at me. I can't fully hear what he's saying, but certain words stick out at me and not for good reasons. My eyes start to water and I can't breathe.

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I shoot up from the couch, breaking free from Finn's arms. High School Musical is finished and the credits are rolling. I look at the clock. It's 4:36 am. My sudden jolt shook Finn awake too. He groggily, but with concern, asks, "Zara, are you okay?"
"I don't know." I say quietly to him.
How can I tell the difference between a dream and a memory? I can't just accuse him. That could ruin everything. At this point I'm staring at the wall, thinking and Finn is now fully awake.
"Zara, you're scaring me. What's wrong?"
Finn asks me. Now he's genuinely worried.
"Finn. Would you lie to me if I asked you something?" I ask with hesitation.
"No. Never. What is it?" He confirms.
"Finn, in my dream, we were in the classroom. And..." I struggle to continue. "And you seemed really mad at me, like I did something bad. And you started shouting at me. Was this just a dream, or is it something else?" I ask calmly.
"I don't know what..." Finn starts to speak but I cut him off. I know he's lying.
"I think you do know what I mean." I tell him softly. He doesn't say anything, he just looks at me, my heart is torn into two. I love what we have, but what else has he been keeping from me? What is hiding behind my lost memories?
"I think I have my answer, unless you care to explain." I finish.
"It's not what it looks like." Finn says, standing up.
"I think you should go." I say still staring at the same spot on the wall. Finn silently picks up the blanket that we were sharing minutes ago and drapes it around me, then leaves. The second the door shuts, tears pour out of my eyes. I'm conflicted with emotions and all I want is answers and sleep. I throw the blanket Finn put on me to the floor and walk to my bedroom. I collapse onto the bed and sob.
This is the first night I ever cried myself to sleep.

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Finn's POV

I'm an idiot.
I'm an idiot.
I'm an idiot.
I repeat this phrase in my head. How could I have been so stupid to think that a way of getting with the girl of my dreams was to ignore her and bash her every single chance I get? Millie was right. This whole thing backfired. The worst part is, she even gave me a chance to explain, but I was too scared to admit that I was mean to her for so long, because I thought I was going to lose my chance and she would hate me forever. But I guess that was all for nothing, because I lost my chance this way too. And if it was the other way around, I would hate me too. I walk into my trailer and immediately crawl into my bed. I try to shut my eyes but I know I'm not going to be able to sleep.
Because this time, it really is all my fault.

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Zara's POV

I wake up at noon. I have to film in three hours and I feel like garbage. I can't believe that Finn would treat me like that and take advantage of the fact that I couldn't remember it. And on top of it all, the reason that I couldn't remember it was because I was trying to save his damn life! I feel flustered and like I'm spinning in circles. The only thing I can think to do is call Millie. So I do.
"Hi, Zara! How did the date go?" Millie chirps.
I know she didn't mean it, but that questions makes me break down into tears again. Clearly Millie hears me too because she adds, "Oh no. I'm sorry. I'm coming right now." She hangs up. I can't take it and I sink to my knees and bawl. I cry until no more tears come out. Until I'm empty. Millie knocks on the door and I mope over and answer it. "Sweetie!" She walks up to me and hugs me. She helps me to the couch. "What happened?" She questions.
I tell her everything. The cruise, the kiss, the movie, and the "dream". She looks down.
"You can't get mad at me when I say this, okay?" She tells me. Oh god, now what?
"What?" I ask with a massive frown.
"I knew about this..." Millie starts, but I cut her off.
"What! How could you not te..." I begin angrily m, but this time, she cuts me off.
"Hear me out! Finn confessed to me why he was so mean and I promised not to tell you. He just wanted a second chance! I told him it was a bad idea, I swear! But he wouldn't listen. That day, at the hospital, the nurse told him that you likely wouldn't remember anything. He was banking on that. He just wanted a second chance, and I wanted to give that to him. I know that it wasn't mine to give, and I'm truly sorry." She exhales. I think for a minute.
"I'm not mad at you." I say after a while. "I just wish that I got to make that choice, because I don't even remember what he did. Or if I did something to him..." I trail off, confused. Why was he so mean before, but now suddenly interested in being with me?
"Zara, you don't need him. Look at you. Smart, gorgeous, and a successful actress. Forget him!" She convinces me. Although maybe a little too much.
"You know what Millie, you're right. I'm gonna confront him." I tell her.
"What? That's not really what I meant. " She asks, slightly weary.
"I'm going to storm over there and find out what the hell happened."

Next Chapter: March 2, 2020

Word Count: 1090 Words