Avalon

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Past Is All You Have

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Tragic visions slowly stole my life

Tore away everything

Cheating me out of my time

I'm the one who loves you

No matter wrong or right

And every day I hold you

I hold you with my inner child

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Serenity....

It's been long time since Nate has taken time to think of that old incident. And that time of their young, inexperienced lives altogether.

And what once had been journey to somewhat dream place they were so confident existed.

Now he just knows such things doesn't exist. Not for men like him and Narcho. They'd been fools blinded by youth and taste of adventure unknown. All things coming from times and times away.

Nate still has little idea what went wrong on the rooftop but he still feels the aftermath of that fateful day. In fact there's a lot he cannot remember.

But he does know Noel also suffered and that it still bothers the slightly older man. For that they both can only blame the girl that became their remake. But is she?

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I need serenity

In a place where I can hide

I need serenity

Nothing changes, days go by

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Serenity.

For decades upon decades Noel being the sap he was hid his majority of feelings and emotions from anything and anyone alive and bloodless equally. He's been known as the "Narcho" from the times before the time. Mostly it was because of the training in the factory he had to endure and by seeing the little boys like him receiving terrible punishments for ever letting even the slightest emotion show. He became his own shadow to hide the true side of him from the one they made out of him. And he learned that he must show absolutely nothing to the outside world.

Mentally toughest decision one could make and sometimes there just wasn't a way to return.

"Narcho" in an ancient language of a race that once fulfilled every nation's wet dream of a perfect soldier means "shadow of a soul" somehow it made his callsign in the early days and for reasons still foggy it stuck to him like second skin. So he just became Narcho and life went on.

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I need serenity

In a place where I can hide

I need serenity

Nothing changes, days go by

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Serenity...

Nate looked at himself in the mirror but only thing he could see was dying man of age still full of life and hope. He saw his ragged face from days long lost and times of another lifetime. A full journey of endless fight for life. Nate saw his tired face and immediately felt every fiber of his body sag in the exhaustion. He was damn tired of it all. All the time twenty-four/seven every single cell throughout made a fight against time and an illness he learned about only after half his life.