Avalon

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I'll seek you out

Flay you alive

One more word and you won't survive

And I'm not scared of your stolen power

See right through you any hour

The part of his brain that processed the events of the night seemed to be broken again. It's happened to Nate before but this was worst so far. He just felt numb when he woke up somewhere dark and couldn't remember how or why he was there.

His brain made a crater of void and he couldn't tell what was what anymore.

But five minutes later he gasped in horror as he recalled the sole reason he was in the building and what was going on. He was still in the darkness and felt the power of shadows slowly feeding him the lost energy of life that Roland and his goons had taken away. It was brutal and his lungs felt tighter than when he arrived. And one thing he noticed was the amount of mucus that had built up while he was out. Without memory to tell about the missing parts of the past few hours made it difficult to understand what had happened.

All he knew and felt was the pain and confusion. Clearly a concussion from the blows. Pain that went deeper and darker was his rattling lungs and it felt like the last breaths of air.

It seemed that the poor things sensed he was close to get the treatment and just was giving up now. It's not the first time he went through that. But this was feeling different and he feared he may not make it.

And maybe it was for the best considering how bad he felt and how deeply the depression hit. The only thing holding him from giving up was the man in the wheelchair somewhere in the great hall.

I won't soothe your pain

I won't ease your strain

You'll be waiting in vain

I got nothing for you to gain

Noel. The sole reason he kept doing all those things this long. He really loved the guy with all his heart and devoted his survival to him.

They never made to talk about what was their relationship or picked labels for it. But all they knew was the deep love and affection.

They had different approaches to life which has led them apart but that didn't matter anyway.

He'd spotted the man while ago which now seemed days ago.

He wheezed a cough and struggled to find the inhaler which was supposed to save him some time but in reality was doing little.

His spasms also were getting worse. For the past decade he knew one day the whole rooftop drama will kick his scrawny ass hard and it seemed this was the day after all. It never was easy. Especially after his little run-in with unexpected heart issue that led to that last meeting with Noel.

Tonight was still giving him mild arrhythmia but he barely felt that. Between his heart and lungs many more things were wrong with his body and spasms coming back was just one more thing he wanted to push back to past.

But he had to push himself towards the future and cross his fingers for the best.

So having five minutes to cough his mucus out and do the inhaler Nate finally got up and built up the strength to face the evening again.