Artists' Perspective [Deidara x Reader]

Aftermath-Chapter 25

(Deidara pov)

"Ugh, what is happening?!" I ask myself hopelessly"Why would she do that?! I'm not mad at her or anything-but seriously what the heck?! It's okay I can just talk about it with Sasori or something! Oh yeah, Sasori is a puppet"

I stare up at my ceiling and sigh.

"What am I gonna do-un?" I whisper.

(Y/n pov)

"I'm going to find Konan or something" I decide sitting up.

I stand up and sigh. Why did I do that, why did I kiss him. I open the door and step out of my room quietly. I knock on Konan's door shyly. She opens the door and motions for me to come in. I sit down beside her on her neatly made bed.

"Thanks" I say with fake enthusiasm.

"What's up?" Konan asks.

"Well-uh-. I um. Y-you see I- uh." I start muttering.

"Hey calm down, you know you can talk to me" She says gently.

"T-thanks" I start to calm down "I-um. I think I made a mistake"

I was really nervous should I actually tell her? Will she be mad, maybe I should just make something up.

"Go on" Konan reassures me with a warm smile.

"I-" 

"Just say it Y/n!!"

"I kissed Deidara" I say quickly and quietly.

"Wow really?!" Konan says sounding almost excited.

"Uh-yeah. I shouldn't have though. I think I probably just ruined our friendship" I say sadly.

"No way! I've always had a hunch that you two liked each other!" She says.

"But- I just don't know exactly why I did it. I've always thought that he was kinda cute but, I just don't know" I say doubting myself.

"Y/n, relax. If Deidara doesn't see you that way just apologize. Say you just got caught up in the moment. I highly doubt that he'll be upset, Y/n he adores you. Even if it's just as a friend" Konan says sweetly.

"Okay, thank you Konan" I whisper.

"But Y/n! You have to tell me" Konan starts her eyes growing wide "What was it like?! Tell me everything!"

"Um- I don't really know how to describe it" I try to explain. "It was just really nice and it kinda just felt right"

"Wait- where were you?! What made you want to kiss him!?" Konan asks.

"Outside" I say "Deidara wanted to show me some of his art. We were sitting on a picnic blanket and there were a bunch of amazing explosions. At some point I just kissed him" 

"That is so romantic. It's a full moon tonight isn't it?" She eagerly asks.

I nod my head, answering her question.

"That makes it even cuter!" Konan gushes.

"It was pretty amazing. Wait-I didn't come over here for you to interview me! I need advice!" I say panicking a little bit.

"Oh, in that case. Just leave it as it is, I'm sure Deidara isn't upset about it. I can even talk to him if you want" Konan offers.

"Okay, thanks" I reply, feeling some-what more confident.

"Well I'm happy for you"Konan says.

"Why?" I ask.

"Deidara really complements your personality and you always seem really happy when you're with him!" She explains.

"Oh, well we aren't dating" I correct her "It was just a crazy one time kiss"

Konan rolls her eyes and stands up. I stand up with her and walk towards the door.

"See ya'! Thanks!" I say turning to face her.

Konan waves to me kindly. I turn back around and step out into the hallway.

"C'mon Y/n! Man up, go talk to him! Imagine what Hidan would say if he saw me freaking out like this! I'll just confront him! We're friends!" I try to convince myself.

My hands and feet feel numb, my head is throbbing, and my stomach hurts. I slowly walk down the hallway. I stop dead in my tracks at Deidara's bedroom door. This shouldn't be so hard. I feel frozen, like I have no control over my muscles. It feels like the moment in a horror movie when you know something is going to jump at you, but you can't look away. I reach for  the door handle, I grasp the cold metal in my palm. I slowly turn the doorknob opening the door slightly.

"Blondie?"I say fully opening the door.

"Yeah" I heard Deidara's muffled voice.

"Um- can I come in?" I ask sheepishly.

"Yeah" Deidara says questioning why I even had to ask.

I notice that he is laying down on his stomach with his face buried in hid pillow. I sit down beside him on the bed. I brush some of his long, blonde, hair out of his face.

"Blondie, are you okay?" I ask, I had forgotten all about my nervousness and anxiety.

"I don't know-un" Deidara says sitting up right.

"I'm really sorry for-uh" I start feeling my face turn red.

"It's okay, I'm sorry-" Deidara says.

I quickly cut him off "You have nothing to be sorry for. I'm the one who kissed you" 

We both try to avoid eye contact by looking at the floor.

"Why?" Deidara asks all of the sudden.

"Huh" I say looking up at Deidara's curious, yet somber sapphire eyes.

"Why did you kiss me-un?" He clarifies, his face turning a darker shade of red.

I can feel my whole face heat up.

"I just- um. Well, your art and the moon- it just felt right I guess" I say trying to find the right words. 

"I'm not upset with you Y/n" Deidara says smiling softly.

"I know, I just kind of thought that our whole friendship would be ruined after I kissed you" I say.

"I felt the same way up until now-un" Deidara says lightening up some.

The whole environment felt less awkward now that we had talked. I no longer felt like something horrible could happen at any moment.

"So, no more awkwardness" I say laughing and extending my hand towards Deidara.

"No more awkwardness" Deidara says shaking my hand.

We started laughing together feeling stupid for acting so awkward around each other.

"Why did I take this so seriously, it's Deidara- I mean nothing could stand in the way of our friendship" I say to myself  "I do wonder though-what would happen if we were in a relationship"

"Deidara," I say quietly "Do you um- like like me?" 

"Ha- 'like like' are we in grade school-un?" Deidara mocks.

"Very funny Blondie" I respond.

(Deidara pov)

"AGH!! I do 'like like' her!! Why can't I just tell her?! We've kissed!! And I can't even tell her that I like her!!" I scream in my head as I try to convincingly laugh with Y/n.

Y/n's laugh is adorable and all that I want is for her to be happy. I know that I should tell her but I can't right now. Now wouldn't be a good time.

"I just need to wait for the perfect timing, then I can tell Y/n how I really feel" I decide to myself.

(A/n- This chapter is a bit short but that was all that i had energy/motivation to write today. I'll try to keep updating but school gets in the way sometimes  Owo)