Artists' Perspective [Deidara x Reader]

Chapter 46

(Deidara pov)

"So that means..." (Y/n) says lowly.

I think about what I've just said. My own words swirl through my mind. My nose and ears feel like they're going to burn, my face is so hot. 

"I told her I hadn't felt real love until now! Oh, Jashin. There's no backtracking from this one"

"(Y/n)...." I say, trailing off. I want to say the words but my body won't let me.

"Deidara..." Her voice cuts in. She has such an angelic voice, a voice that should belong to a goddess.  I long for the taste of her mouth again. 

"I- " I start, "(Y/n), I really, really..."

She looks me in the eyes. She doesn't even know how her gaze is affecting me. The minimal lighting perfectly illuminating her face. 

"No-" I cut myself off.

"(Y/n), I love you..." I blurt out, terrified of how she'll react.

"I can't believe I did that! I should probably reign in my spontaneity- I might come on too strong. I'm just not the type to hold back, especially when it comes to my feelings"

Her face twists into an expression that I can't quite read. 

(Y/n pov)

"(Y/n), I love you..." Deidara says suddenly. His voice sounds weak.

His words shake me. I guess it's not surprising, the signs have been there for quite some time. It's not that I'm caught off guard. I think it's that this is too new, too sudden. My face starts feeling hot and I can feel tears forming in my eyes. 

"Deidara-" My voice cracks. Tears roll down my cheeks. I can't remember the last time I cried, the last time I was comfortable enough to cry. My emotions feel free, I don't feel the need to suppress them. 

Deidara's own confidence has inspired my own emotions to shine through. 

I throw my arms around Deidara's waist and bury my face in his chest. My sobs now clearly audible. 

He groans, I can tell I've just completely befuddled him. 

"I love you too" I say, my weak voice muffled. I laugh, "I'm sorry. I'm bad at this"

"Oh whatever- I don't think anyone is good at love-un" Deidara says. 

I separate from him and look into his clear blue eyes. I can't stop myself from smiling. 

"Well, I do love you, Blondie" I say with my voice still shaky. On my tip toes I kiss Deidara on the cheek. 

"I honestly can't believe that just happened" Deidara says quietly, his cheeks are still very red. He almost sounds confused at his own actions, not surprising considering how boldly impulsive that was.

"Me neither" I say letting out a gentle laugh, "... but I'm glad it did" 

"Me too-un"

"This is the most honest I've ever been. Both with another person and myself" I tell myself.

The moment both felt like it lasted forever and went by in a flash. It's such a confusing feeling. I want it to last forever. 

"So..." I mutter. 

"So?" 

"So, what now?

"Nothing... everything... anything that you want"

I ponder his answer for a moment. Such a beautifully vague statement. 

"Yeah, I suppose so" I answer.

Deidara intertwines his fingers with mine and smiles at me. My own smile can't be hidden. I feel so complete in this moment. So unexplainably whole.

We stand there for a few minutes, simply holding on to each other, like we're the only two people on the planet, like all we need is to be with each other. 

The moment lingers for a while. I laugh to myself happily. I never knew I could feel like this. If a year ago I had been told that I'd be in love with a terroristic artist, I obviously would never believe it. I was in such a place that I thought I could never feel loved. 

"That was ridiculous, you're so impulsive. I don't think anyone else would flat out confess like that" I say jokingly.

"That's part if my charm isn't it?" He says smirking. 

"That's one way to put it" I taunt.

Comfortably we stay in each others presence, doing nothing. Nothing but being in each others presence. 

After quite some time Deidara asks, "It's getting quite late. Do you want to head back home? If you don't that's perfectly fine"

"Oh- um... We should probably start headed home" I say becoming slightly melancholy "I could stay here forever though"

"Hmm why not stay out a bit longer-un?", he playfully suggests, "Shall we go and destroy something before we make our ways back home, M'lady?"

"That does sound quite splendid!" I jest.

"The Leaf Village, is conveniently near by-un" He says, hints of mischief in his voice.

"Hmm, I guess you're right", I say my lips twisting into a smirk.

"Though, I've experienced quite a lot in Konoha, I feel like I can go back. I'm not entirely sure why. It's not like I'm vengeful even, and I wouldn't usually want to go back, but tonight... tonight it's different"

Deidara gives me a sympathetic look, as if he can hear what I'm thinking. He grabs my hand and starts to lead me in the direction of The Leaf Village. It's an amazing feeling to see Deidara's sweet side, when I know nobody else sees this side of him. 

"I feel like everything has moved so fast- not that I mind. In fact I think this is good for me, Deidara is really good for me"

We venture closer to Konoha, I enjoy how gorgeous the moonlight and incandescent butterflies light up the scenery. I still just can't believe all of this is happening.

(A/n: so this is a random personal note but I have been texting my irl crush recently on instagram and it is absolutely unreal- like it's so weird bc he's so soft and sweet over text but irl he's like super serious and quiet but it's just crazy and it makes me so happy and we've been talking about music and stuff and omg yayayayay!!!! but anyways sorry this chaptwr is a bit short lol i just wanted to get smth out for you guys to read :D )