(Magnus Haven #1) Fighting For His Name (COMPLETED)

Chapter 10

If there will be a competition where the person with too much questions in his/her mind will win? Ako na panigurado ang mananalo. Wala akong balak bumitaw sa yakap sa kaniya. Wala akong balak tignan siya. Wala akong balak magsalita. All I want to do now is to stay in his arms.

And he's letting me to do what I wanted.

He never spoke. He never moved. He never did anything to break our hug. He's just there. Standing while holding me.

Pride's standing in between us. I want him to speak first. But I know he wants me to speak first. But I couldn't find the exact words to say now. I don't know what to say when in fact, napuno ng mga salita ang isip ko sa nagdaang araw na hindi ako nagpakita sa kaniya.

But I want him to speak first. Ayoko manguna dahil kapag ako ang nauna... iiyak lang ako. Iiyak ako kahit alam ko na mas marami siyang tanong sa isipan niya.

Nung sinabi niya na hihintayin niya ako hanggang matapos exams namin? Nandoon nga siya. Pero hindi ako nagpakita. Jax was right. Dadating iyong oras na kakailanganin ko ang tulong niya at ang calling card niya. That day, I swallowed my pride and asked for a help with him.

Habang hinihintay ako ni Rey sa labas ng room namin, nasa malayo ako, kasama si Jax.

I had a hard time that day, kasi paano ako makakalabas kung nakatitig si Rey sa room namin? Na talagang hinihintay niya ako? Kaya ang ginawa ko, sumabay ako sa magbabarkada na lumabas, doon ako sa gitna nila at laking pasasalamat ko na sa kabilang way sila dumaan at hindi sa kung nasaan si Rey.

And I succeed. Pagbaba ko ng building, nasa open field na kaagad si Jax. I don't know what he did to move fast pero mabilis ko siyang inaya na umalis. Because I don't want to look at him. I don't want to talk to him with the thought of na baka pupunta siya sa sinasabi ng text na iyon.

It hurt my heart to think that I left him there, nothing. Na pinagmukha ko siyang tanga doon sa labas ng room namin. I bet my classmates told him na wala na ako. Na nauna ako. I bet he got confused, na wala siyang nakita, na hindi niya naman ako nakitang lumabas. Thinking all of this, parang malalaglag ang puso ko.

Later that day, hindi na siya tumatawag sa akin. Yes, he's blocked but the other numbers he's using to call me, hindi na muling nagpakita pa. Kinabukasan, wala na rin siyang paramdam. Thank God, Mari was there to accompany me but never asked where Rey is. I don't know if she knows or what, pero buti hindi siya nagtanong. Friday came, same with what happened this Thursday. Hanggang makaalis ako ng Manila to fly into Palawan, wala akong nakuhang balita sa kaniya.

Madaming tumatakbo sa isipan ko na mga dahilan kung bakit hindi na niya ako ginulo nung lumayo ako. One, it's either he's hurt. Two, he let me to stay quiet. Three, he let me calm first kasi baka alam niyang galit ako. Fourth, baka alam niya na nakita ko iyong text. But all of those are nonsense kasi hindi ko naman sure, wala akong kumpirmasyon kung totoo ba iyon.

Ang makakapatunay lang ay siya mismo. But I was scared... I was scared to ask him. I was scared that he's mad at me for ditching him and making him look like stupid that day. I was scared from everything.

Dahan-dahan kong naramdaman na nangangawit na ako. Dahan-dahan din akong kumalas pero mas hinila niya ako nang maramdaman iyon. "Sorry.." He apologized, again and again.

It's just a simple mistake... or misunderstanding. I should be the one saying sorry.. I should be the one to lower my pride... I was the one who acted shit. I was the one who used my pride instead of my mind and love for him. So, he shouldn't be feel sorry for what he don't know. For what he don't know what happened to me.

Sabi ni Jax sa akin, when I told him everything that made me distant to him, 'Masama talaga sa relasyon ang assumption. It can lead to breakup kasi inaassume mo iyang lies na iyan. You can just ask him about it, hindi iyong pinapairal mo pride mo na baka may iba siya. Parang sinasabi mo na kasi na totoo, e 'di ba unknown number? May dalawang possibility answer lang iyan, it'd either kilala niya talaga o hindi. At sa'yo, inisip mo talaga na totoo without asking or confirming it. At kung tatanungin mo kung sino mas may mali? Ikaw. You're the one wrong here, Khloe. May mali si Rey, oo, pero mas may mali ka. And that's the assuming too much.'