Why Won't You Love Me?: Sequel to Dazed & Confused

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3rd of March 2023
Why Won't You Love Me: 5 Seconds of Summer
'Three missed calls at 2 AM, you say you never heard, you're late to get to work.'

3 am.

My phone would not stop ringing and I was hoping that if I had just ignored it, the person who was calling would go away, but they did not, so I eventually gave up and answered it.

'Hello?' I yawned, being careful not to be to loud because the sound travelled in my parents house. I had decided to move back into my parents house, as being in a house that once belonged to my ex-boyfriend and myself was just too weird for me.

'Hey baby did I wake you?' Luke asked and I immediately sat up, not having had an actual conversation with him in days. He was in New York as the boys were now touring for their new album 'Calm.'

'No, you didn't I'm awake,' I lied and I heard Luke chuckle through the phone, which made me instantly miss him. The boys left about a month ago and would not be back in Australia until July, when they would be touring and Ashton would be getting married to Isla.

'What time is it Sienna?' he asked and I sighed, knowing he was going to feel guilty for waking me up, and it was not the first time he had done it. He woke me up last Wednesday at 6 am, which caused me to be late to my Vogue internship and I received one hell of a blast from my supervisor, which means that can never happen again.

'It's three o'clock in the morning,' I said softly and now it was Luke's turn to sigh as I quickly placed my phone down and pulled on Luke's year twelve jumper which was slowly losing the fresh, minty smell that I had grown to love.

'Go back to sleep princess,' Luke said gently and I smiled at the amount of nicknames he was giving me lately. I think it made us feel closer to each other but neither of us would admit it, we were never one for pet names.

'I can't, I'm awake now,' I laughed and leaned over to my beside table to turn on my lamp, my eyes adjusting quickly to the newfound brightness. 'Anyways, what did you call me for.'

'Evie and Michael got engaged!' he exclaimed and I let out a small squeal of happiness for two of my close friends who were going to be married.

'Oh my god that's so exciting!' I said softly, being careful that my voice did not carry, as on more than one occasion I found my mum in my room scolding me for talking so loudly at two in the morning.

'I know, it was completely out of the blue too. Apparently he had been trying to find the perfect moment for days and they they were just dancing around in their hotel room and then he was down on one knee and here we are.'

'I'll call both of them I have finished talking to you,' I said, smiling to myself. 'I bet you Evie has already set a date,' I giggled and Luke laughed at my words too, because we know like Olivia, Evie had been planning her wedding with Michael since they were thirteen.

'September the twenty-fourth, two months after Ashton and Isla get married,' Luke said softly and I just nodded to myself. That left Luke, the only member of 5 Seconds of Summer, not married or engaged, and I am sure the tabloids would be talking about it once Evie and Michael announced their engagement.

'That's exciting, I can't wait.'

'Do you have University today?' Luke asked, quickly changing the topic of conversion.

'Yeah, only one class at one though.'

I went back to University last week and I was in my final year, thank god. I loved what I studied but I was ready be working in the real world by now.

'I miss you baby.'

'I miss you too Lukey, more than anything in the world.'

'Are you sure that you can't come and visit?' Luke asked after a moment of my silence and I could hear the longing in his voice and I sighed once more, knowing there was no way I could go overseas this year until I was finished with my study.

'Not until November, no I can't I'm sorry.'

He didn't push it any further, instead he went onto talk about how exciting the tour was so far and how much the fans loved the new music. I loved the new music too. The boys are so talented, it blows me away. I miss hearing Luke singing too himself in the morning though, and I miss hearing Ashton drumming away in the evenings, I miss it so much that it hurts my heart to even think about it, knowing I am not going to see them for another five months.

'Okay, I understand. I love you though, so so much Sienna, it's crazy how much I love you.'

'I love you too Luke, more than anything.'

'So, talk to me. Tell me everything that is happening right now,' he said sweetly over the phone and so I dived into everything that is happening in my life.

I told him how Stefan was having a big birthday for his twentieth this weekend and how we all plan on getting so drunk we cannot even go into town to party. I told him how my internship was going, minus the part when I got yelled at the other day. I briefly skimmed over work, because working in a cafe is not that interesting at all. I told him how good my classes are so far and how I was applying for my next internship at Channel Ten news, as this one was required by my degree, as my Vogue internship was only for experience.

'Si, I have to go now, we have to go to the venue,' Luke sighed and I felt a lump from in my chest. It was now 5 am, meaning Luke and I had been talking for two hours, but in reality, it only felt like five minutes.

'Okay,' I sighed and I knew immediately he could tell that something was up, because there was a moment of silence from him and then there was sob from me.

'Please don't cry princess, you are too pretty to cry.'

'Shut up,' I laughed through the tears. My heart was hurting, I wanted my boyfriend here. I wanted my brother back in my house, since I was already missing one. I wanted my friends back. 'I'll cry if I want to.'

'I know it's hard but it will get better, I promise you Si, the next couple of months are going to fly by. I'm sorry that I haven't been able to talk as much but I promise you I'll call you whenever I can now, even if it's for ten minutes, it will be like I'm not gone at all.'

'Okay. I should probably go back to bed,' I said softly. 'I love you so much babe, more than anything.'

'I love you too gorgeous, more than anything,' Luke said, and then he was gone and I was alone, trying to hold back tears again.

I wanted to believe it was like he is not gone at all, but as I looked across my room and to his room, the curtains pulled back and the room dark, it was hard to imagine that he was not gone at all.

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Double update because I'm so bored itS INSANE

not much to say tbh

Stay safe quarantine yourself if need be!!! Don't party (it kills me to say that) and dont PANIC BUY it's ridiculous

Anyways thanks for reading XX