Why Won't You Love Me?: Sequel to Dazed & Confused

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6th of July 2023

Gone So Long: Breathe Carolina

'I never meant to be gone so long, I'm sorry I made you wait. I wish that I could stay, I live for this but I'd die for you.'

'So you are sure you can't make it?' Luke asked over the phone. It was the night of their final show for the 'No Shame' tour, in Sydney, and I had told Luke that I was stuck at my Channel Ten internship, even though that was a lie.

'I'm so sorry babe, I am stuck in the office,' I lied once more, a grin on my face. 'I will see you tomorrow then, yeah?'

'Yeah okay.'

'Okay, I love you. I am so proud of you Luke, you are going to be incredible as always,' I said as I was sitting in the Uber outside of the Horden Pavillion where they were playing. I was waiting for Luke to say they had to go on stage and then I was going to rush backstage to stand with Isla, Evie and Olivia, who all knew that I was coming tonight.

'I love you too Sienna, I have to go now baby, I will see you tomorrow though,' Luke sighed and I could hear the pain in his voice, which made me feel really guilty for lying about what I was doing.

I smiled to myself as I climbed out of the Uber, thanking my driver as I quickly ran to the back of the venue to the artist entrance and showed the security guard the pass that my mum had gotten for me and I quickly made my way backstage to the wings where the three girls were standing and the boys were on stage, opening with 'She Looks So Perfect,' their first single from when they were just starting out in London.

'Hey everybody,' I said softly, a squeal erupting from Isla's lips when she saw me, all three girls pulling me into a hug as I laughed softly before they let go of me, all of them with smiles on their faces which made my smile even bigger,

'God he is going to be so excited to see you Sienna,' Olivia said as we all focussed our attention back onstage, where the boys were beginning the intro of 'Old Me.'

'How long has it been?' Isla asked as we all continued to watch the boys were the always felt most at home, on stage.

'Six months,' I sighed, watching Luke and only Luke, my eyes locked on his body and the way it moved with the music, making my heart swell with pride that my boyfriend is that talented, and so are his three best friends, one being my brother, who also always blew me away, as did Calum and Michael too, all those boys ooze talent.

'We have all missed you Sienna, it's good to be back,' Evie said as she pulled me into a side hug, my head resting on her shoulder fo the rest of 'Old Me,' as the boys transitioned into 'Teeth.'

'I have missed all of you too, it's good to have you guys home,' I said with a smile and we continued to watch the boys perform, having small conversations in between but wanting to take in the last night of their tour, even though it was only the first night I that I actually saw them play.

'Thank you very much, Sydney! We love you all so much, see you guys sooner then you think!' Luke said into the microphone before the four boys took their final bows and walked off stage, Calum and Luke hugging as they walked off, Michael and Ashton breezing straight past us like they did not notice we were waiting in the wings for them.

'They always do this,' Olivia laughed as all four boys had now passed us, Luke not even noticing that I was waiting for him. 'They are so caught up in the show and how great it was, they don't come out of the bubble until about ten minutes after.'

'Okay,' I laughed at her words, completely understanding what she meant because Shawn was like that after shows sometimes. My laugh and words obviously caught the attention of Luke, whose pink silk shirt was unbuttoned and his silver chains were resting perfectly on his neck.

'Holy shit Sienna,' he said with a grin as I walked towards him and he ran to me, picking me up and swinging me around like a cliche movie moment, but I could have not pictured a more perfect reunion between the two of us. He held me for a little while longer, placing me down, a smile on both of our faces as he kissed me as he had never kissed me before. It was warm but controlled, passionate yet longing, it was like the first time we kissed all those years ago.

'Hey,' I said softly, happy tears forming in my eyes from the excitement of seeing my boyfriend since the first time since February.

'Oh god don't cry, why are you crying?' Luke laughed as he wiped the tears from under my eyes and pulled me into an even tighter hug than the one before.

'Happy tears,' I laughed and he just smiled as he kissed the top of my head, my arms still wrapped around his sweaty body, not that I minded.

'Oh good,' Luke laughed before we began to walk hand in hand back to his dressing room so  the boys could change and we could go home, or go party, or just do anything, because as long as it was with Luke, I did not mind.

'I love you, so fucking much,' I whispered as we walked into their dressing room, kissing his shoulder and getting a whiff of his sent that I had been longing for the past months.

'I love you more Sienna Irwin,' he said, giving me one last kiss on the lips before he headed for the showers.

'Now I know I'm only your brother, but I would also like a hug after not seeing you for six months,' Ashton said and I just rolled my eyes at him as he pulled me into a warm embrace, transferring all his sweat onto me, my white shirt now soaked, not that I minded.

'Sorry Ash, I've missed you,' I said into his chest and he just ruffled the top of my hair, pushing me away so he could also go have a shower.

'Yeah yeah, I've missed you too,' he called as he walked off to the showers.

'We have missed you too,' Michael said gesturing towards him and Calum and I just grinned as I was engulfed in a group hug by the two boys, before they decided they needed to shower to we could all go home and get to bed.

I decided to stay at Luke's house, well technically Liz and Andy's house, because Luke had not found a place of his own yet.

'God, I've missed you so much,' Luke said as we lay in his bed together, my head resting on his bare chest. 'I'm sorry I was gone for so long gorgeous.'

'I think I have a better way for you to show that you missed me.'

'Oh yeah, and what is that?' Luke asked as I looked up at home, his eyes dark, as he already knew what I meant.

'Oh, I think you know exactly what I mean.'

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And we all know exactly what they did ;))))))))

Anyways CALM COMES OUT NEXT FRIDAY And I am so excited I cannot wait I love 5sos so much

I also got GA Harry styles tickets ahhhh!!! Except my friends and I are going to try for VIP today lol we have no self control

Anyways I hope everybody is staying safe, remember social distancing and self isolation is the best thing we can all do Rn!!!!

Thank you for reading xx