Why Won't You Love Me?: Sequel to Dazed & Confused

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22nd of September 2022
I Wanna Be Yours: Arctic Monkeys
'Secrets I have held in my heart, are harder to hide than I thought. Maybe I just want to be yours.'

'So, he said he is coming out tonight?' Milly asked and I nodded as I handed her vodka soda and we went back outside to where everybody was already drinking.

'Well, I invited the rest of his band and their girlfriends, so I think he just kind of assumed that he was invited too,' I said with an awkward smile.

'How did this conversation even happen between you two?' Milly asked as we stayed close to the door, avoiding the ears of everybody else, mainly Luke who I could see was staring at us from afar.

'He came over on my birthday to give me flowers and I told him that Shawn and I broke up,' I said and Milly's brown eyes widened at this.

'What was his reaction?' Milly asked before taking a long sip from her drink.

'He said he was sorry to hear and that was about it.'

'God what a pussy, he is so in love with you still.'

'Nothing is ever going to happen between us again, he said that himself in the voice mail that he left me,' I said quietly, hoping that nobody would hear the conversation between us.

'You'll at least kiss tonight, you two are soul mates,' she said with a smirk and I just rolled my eyes at here before we made our way over to everybody else, the atmosphere feeling weird without Shawn here who was always at these things.

'Oh piss off,' I said with a laugh before picking up my glass of champagne off the table and sitting in between Henry and Ashton, both of them with a beer in hand.

'Hey birthday girl, how are you?' Ashton asked with a smile on his face. It was nice to get to spend this time with him, as I usually did not get to due to him touring and recording all the time.

'Not drunk enough, that's for sure,' I said sculling my glass of champagne, earning a concerned look from Henry and a laugh from Ashton who went to pour me another drink.

'How are you doing?' Henry asked and I knew what he meant. Shawn.

'I'm okay, it just feels weird that he isn't here, that's all,' I said honestly.

'I know Si, it will get better, I promise you,' Henry said with a supportive smile and I nodded, pulling him into a hug before Ashton came back with another glass of champagne for me.

'Here you go,' Ashton said with a smile and I thanked him as I began to slowly sip on my glass of champagne, having absolutely no intentions of being sober by the next hour.

'Are you going to sleep with Luke tonight?' Izzy giggled as we climbed into the mini bus I had booked to take us all to town.

It was safe to say that all of us were intoxicated, so much so that Olivia was asleep on the couch in the living room, having decided that if she drank anymore she probably would pass out in the club.

'Hmmm maybe,' I giggled and before I knew it Luke has grabbed my hand and pulled me down next to him with a smirk on his face. He was wearing a black silk shirt with gold chains hanging around his neck, matched with black jeans and gold boots.