"Are you kidding me!? He went down on you!? And you didn't even text me! You bitch!" Rebecca screams into the phone. I rub my temples. I look around at the park near campus.
"It happened at like 3 in the morning, Rebecca." I stare at some ducks and decide to sit on a bench.
"So what!? You didn't think to call me or text! Plus, dude, it's a big deal. This is like your first sexual, anything!" She laughs.
"Screw you. It doesn't matter Rebecca." I scoff and she sighs.
"Wait was it like, good?" I cringe at the question.
"Ugh," I throw my head back, "it was amazing dude. But its never gonna happen again. Shawn was drunk." I sigh and Rebecca groans.
"Okay... are you gonna return the favor?" My head bounces up and I suddenly don't feel like lounging.
"d-do you think I should?" I choke and she giggles.
"Well duh."
"But I don't even know how to do that! I'm not gonna ask him for help, that's so fucking awkward." I groan and she laughs harder.
"What's wrong with that? That's how I learned." She says confidently. My cheeks flame and I look around. There's a pigeon staring at me. I kick around my foot.
"What do you want stalker?" I yell at the pigeon, muting myself so Becca can't hear. it cocks its head, kinda scaring me. I stare at the pigeon awkwardly. I feel like I'm in its territory like I did something wrong by sitting on this bench.
"Okay, well, do you want me to, I guess, teach you?" she says awkwardly. My pulse speeds up, making my hands clammy.
"Sure." I spit out and she giggles.
"Okay so, I'll give you a very important tip. Do not, I repeat, do not use your fucking teeth! it's like someone chewing off your clit." She says and I cringe, "um, when it's happening and you can't fit it all in your mouth, use your hand and stroke it while your... sucking?"
I want someone to run me over. Right. Fucking. now.
"Uh, hallow your cheeks, don't hold it too tight and when you feel like he's gonna cum, begin to like hum." She adds and I bury my face in my hands.
"Hum?" I ask and she sighs.
"Yes, it's like a vibration thing." She says as if it's obvious.
"Okay..." I murmur.
"So that's all? There was no morning thing?"
"I cleaned his house." I sigh and she gasps.
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"Stupid."
"I know."
"Did he help you?"
"He was sleeping."
"Oh. My. God." She laughs and I just stare at the sky, "did he at least wake up?"
"Right before I left." This sounds so stupid finally talking about.
"What happened?"
"He asked me to stay, I said no. He kissed me, I kissed back," I tense before finishing, "and then I said 'okay bye'." I grit my teeth and she practically hisses at me.
"Brianna. What the fuck?"
"I know! I'm sorry!" I cry and she laughs. I smile.
"Olivia's here, I gotta go. I love you."
"I love you more," I say and she sighs, I stand up and begin walking to my dorm.
"We are going to talk about this later." She says and I nod.
"I know," I chuckle.
"Okay, bye." She teases. I open the door to the entrance.
"Fuck off." I laugh, she giggles and hangs up.
I don't think I've had a more awkward, cringy, conversation in my fucking life.
I gag just thinking about it.
I run up the stairs to go to my dorm.
I should probably study. Maybe go to the library?
I sigh when I finally get to my dorm. I unlock the door and immediately want to walk out.
"Oh hey, Brianna!" Brooklyn smiles, I accidentally stare at the fact that Shawn's in the room.
"Hey." I feel my breathing hitch in my throat and walk into the small room.
"You weren't here this morning. I wanted to go get like, coffee or something." She tilts her head and I clear my throat.
"Sorry, I headed out early." I lie and she nods.
"Oh okay, me and Maria were gonna go to Chubbie's, do you wanna come with?" She asks.
"Uh," I look at Shawn and he nods his head, "no thanks, I think I'll stay here." I smile and sit on my bed.
"Ugh, you suck." She stands up, I notice Shawn staring at me.
"I guess I'll see you later," I say and she nods.
"Do you want me to bring you something?" She asks, I shake my head.
"No no, I'm okay, thank you though. I think I'll just go meet up with dan-" I stop myself when I see Shawn's jaw clench, "Jake." I correct so Shawn won't burst.
"Whatever, I'll see you later." She says Shawn stands up.
"I'm gonna use the bathroom real quick, you can go in the car," Shawn says, handing her the keys. My heart goes wild.
Oh my god oh my god oh my god.
"Alright, bye Bri!" She winks before leaving the dorm. Shawn turns to me. I try to think of a way out of this.
"You seemed pretty urged to leave this morning." He says, walking in front of me.
"I'm sorry," I pull my hair out of my ponytail, "I got nervous." I sigh and he nods.
"I wouldn't mind doing that again." He says and I squeeze my legs.
"Uh Shawn," I stand up and he still towers over me, "we have to stop, whatever this is. It's not like... Thing. You were drunk and I was just me." I try to find my words. He himself looks at a loss for words.
"Just because I was drunk?"
"Well, obviously whatever the hell this is, it's toxic." I fold my arms, "I've dealt with toxic already this year. I don't want to do it again." I sigh, remembering the phone call I got from Becca. Still can't believe David cheated on me. It's already been like two months. It's about to be August.
"There's nothing to stop." He says, pushing a piece of hair behind my ear. I get nervous again, wanting the sparks to stop.
"Um," I look away from him, "you should go with Brooke now," I say and he sighs.
"Whatever." He removes his hand and walks to the door, "I'll see you later."
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Romance~ Completed ~ This story is based off of the book, After by Anna Todd! I absolutely love the series and thought it would be a great idea to have more stories based around it. I give all credits to Anna and her amazing work. I hope you enjoy the roll...
