Violently Icy

Other side of the wall

The other side held what was claimed to be gorgeous and beautiful. Most didn't know for sure. I knew so far something was always the same with Ryder, he got ugly when he was either drinking or smoking. That was when he always got violent and abusive. I decided to just face him and see where things didn't go. He barged right past James and came up to me almost immediately.

The tension and anxiety was there and he broke the silence between us. "Can we go somewhere else more private to talk about things," he asked me. "Sure," I replied back. We went to one of the rooms that weren't used. He went inside the room first, leaving me to shut the door and be the one to be prepared or so I thought...

As soon as I went to turn around, I was met by Ryder with a kiss to my lips. He tried to make it a very passionate one but I stopped him before he got ahead of himself. "What do you think we're doing? More importantly, what are you doing, Ryder," I asked. "I was hoping to make up and make maybe a little love to you and try to make things right between us. I'm not drinking anymore and smoking I stopped so there is nothing to worry about," he answered back. I was not trying to get my hopes up this time, not again.

I just couldn't believe him. "Whatever," I said and as soon as I went to turn around, he caught my hand and twirled me around to face him and began French kissing me, deeply. He continued to make slow, gentle love to me. He began to kiss all over my body and undress me slowly. He proceeded to declothe himself and we were now naked in front of one another and I was BIG pregnant. "Wait," I said, stopping him in his tracks, I thought.

"Just can't wait to feel every inch of my body again. It's been awhile," he replied, smugly. "You mean MY body," I shot out. He smiled wickedly at my words. It was in a small second that I smelled the alcohol on his breath and the smell of smoke on his skin. I pushed him away almost immediately and said,"You haven't changed a bit, Ryde. You lied to me and hoped I wouldn't notice it. You are unbelievable". I then, slapped him in the face and quickly got dressed and slammed the door shut behind me, leaving him completely naked and alone.

James saw me and knew I was upset and tried to calm me down. It didn't exactly work. "What did he say", James asked. 'Or more, what did he do", he continued to ask. "He wanted to fuck me after he lied about being clean and sober all because he wanted some pussy", I replied. The look of shock on his face told me he felt how I did, furious and appalled. Ryder came out of the room, fully dressed, and said" I know I messed up.. I was hoping to fix things. It was wrong of me to slip up only once after becoming sober and clean but now I'm sure there's no way that's going to happen. I'll just leave", Ryder said.

He walked out of the house and seemed not to care about his baby. I really didn't give two fucks about him not caring about me but his own baby, that was different. At least in my eyes. And in my heart. I decided to sit on the back deck of the house and enjoy fresh air and calm down. I dialed Ryder and began to call him and then as soon as I heard" Yeah", I instantly hung up. I knew I should have said something but I just couldn't find my voice.

My phone vibrated and the name that popped up was Ryder's. I answered the call and he said,"You called?" I knew I had to find my voice and say something. "Yeah, I wanted to talk about the baby", I answered back. It was quiet for a few minutes and then I heard,"Okay. Talk then", he said. "Do you want anything to do with them? Anything at all", I asked. I knew he was shocked at the reveal of the twins. He, just like others who knew, we're under the impression that I was only carrying one. I had found out at my last appointment that there were two and they were the same time length.

"I uh... What are we having? I didn't know about the other one, I only knew about one", He said, in complete shock. I wasn't sure how to approach things and I sure as shit didn't want to make him upset, even if he deserved it. "One of each.. A boy and a girl. The girl was the one I knew about but now there's a baby boy in there. We um.. yeah", I replied. The next few minutes held nothing but silence. "I think we should focus on them and see where things take us", he said.

I wasn't going to lie, it did hurt me a little hearing those words from him.