The Darkness In Us

Found And Lost

I thanked the Awoken for the party and for having Xander and I there to celebrate with them. They all congratulated me again in capturing Skolas.

"Your Grace, may the Traveler bless you and your people with prosperity and may we continue to help each other out from time to time against those who oppress our small corner of the galaxy." I say. Mara inclined her head slightly.

"I wish you luck, strength, and wisdom Guardian. Dark times may be ahead. I hope that you will be on our side." she said. I nod and bowed a bit and then excused myself; Xander had already left on his own ship. Once there, I quickly changed back into armor and smiled, feeling more comfortable. There was a knock and I turned and saw Uldren.

"I didn't think you were big on goodbye scenes." I said after a few minutes of silence. Uldren pulled a gun out and pointed it at me. I froze on the spot. Ares, who had been previously out and about, immediately transmatted into me. I looked at him and Uldren seemed unnerved by how calm I looked.

"Aren't you scared about me killing you?" he asked. I only looked at him, staying quiet. He walked forward and was now only a few feet away.

"Answer me!" he yelled, but I remained silent. Instead of cowering back, I closed the gap, the barrel of the gun at my forehead. I looked him in the eyes.

"Go ahead." I said. This time he froze and although I wasn't trying to see, I saw a few thoughts formulating.

"Don't you care?" he asked again. I shook my head, arms crossed over my chest.

"I never wanted immortality." I said simply. "However, I am curious, are you doing this because you want to or because Mara ordered you to?"

"How did you-" he started but before he could finish, I knocked the gun out of his hands and pushed him against the wall.

"Don't worry about how I know." I said, letting him go. Let's see if he really wanted to kill me, shall we? I put the gun to my temple and pulled the trigger. The expression on his face answered my question as everything faded.

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-Uldren-

I watch in horror, in slow motion, as she pulls the trigger. The shot rings out and I can hear myself screaming distantly. I see her eyes dim, the light in them die. She falls and I catch her just in time. A few seconds later, her body disappears and she's brought back by Ares, who seems frightened.

"What the fuck did you do that for?!" I yell. Bela looks at me and there's both anger and hurt in her eyes. I immediately regret everything.

I'm fucking stupid. Why did I come here?

"Why the hell does it matter if I kill myself?! You were about to kill me!" she asks, raising her voice. I look at her and see tears streaming down her cheeks.

No...Bela I'm sorry. I'm so damn stupid. Please don't cry...don't hate me.

"....I hate you..." she says with a choked voice, pushing me out of the ship. The doors close and the ship leaves. Petra runs over with a few corsairs, weapons drawn.

I really screwed up. And just when I realized how much I care about you...

"We heard a shot. What happened?" she asks, alarmed. I dismiss the corsairs and then explain to Petra about the exchange.

"...no offense...but you're seriously stupid. You hurt her feelings." she says. I could yell at her for making me feel guiltier. Or rather...I wish she'd yell at me.

"So now it's my fault she's suicidal?" I demand. Petra sighs, exasperated, shaking her head.

"No. No one's blaming you. Look...Cayde's told me about her. She has a hard time trusting people and letting them in, truly letting them in. She's got walls up constantly and you earned her trust. Now, you lost it. And that, Prince Uldren, can be unrepairable." she says before walking awag. I sigh, nodding and running a hand through my hair.