1980's / mattia polibio

.12

I needed to stop. They can't see me cry. One by one the group of boys I know so well ran in from the field to where I sat, worried. I stopped crying by the time Ale, the first one of them to appear, came in the dugout. My eyes were red and puffy because I rubbed them in attempt to get rid of my tears, so they all knew I was crying.
"Hey, hey Smalls what's wrong?" questioned Kai.
"nothing I'm Fine" I lied.
"Cmon talk to us Smalls, you can tell us anything" Alvaro insisted.
I looked up at all of them wondering if I should tell them or not. I saw Mattia in my small crowd of friends but once I looked at him, he looked away. I scoffed silently under my breath.
"It's my family. Remember when I told you I moved a bunch and that's why I never really made friends. I think they're deciding to move again" I spoke all in a single breath.
There were mixed expressions among the boys faces. Some were sad and others mad. But Mattias stood out. He was in shock for one small second and then his original expression was back and he rolled his eyes and walked to the other side of the dugout. I ignored him while I listened to the other boys who began rambling.
"Just come live with me I'm sure my ma will be fine with it" said Ale.
I laughed but all I wanted to do was cry. So I did. I realized that I could trust them and I felt fine to express myself with them. Some sat next to me and I dug my head into Kais shoulder crying. Mattia then came over softened by the fact that I was breaking down and slouched to the ground in front of me. I felt his hand grab mine as he started to rub it slowly to reassure me. I looked up at him and broke down again. He caught me and held me in his arms. We were hugging for quite some time while he slowly rubbed my back and swayed me side to side. Then I let go from the grasp he so gently held me in and sat back down on the bench. I'll admit, I felt safe in his arms and I really needed a hug from him. It's weird though, he acts like he hates me one second and then he wants to be nice. I don't get it, anyways-.
"I- I cant go. You guys are m- my family" I managed to stutter out in between short breaths.
Their faces dropped even more at the sound of that.
"Just talk to your parents I'm sure they'll listen" Roshaun whispered.
"They'll never change their mind because of me" I murmured.
Mattia brushed his hand against my face causing shivers to spread throughout my entire body. His touch almost made me forgot the major problem that I was currently trying to cope with. He lifted my face up and pleaded,"You have to talk to them about it and tell them how you feel. They will understand."
With that I nodded and stood up. I wiped away my tears and told them I was gonna talk to them. They were surprised at the sudden movement but all nodded and I was off. I was hardly convinced that anything I said would change their mind but I had to do something. I walked into my all to familiar home and took a deep breath. I walked into the living room and saw them sitting watching television.
"Hey mom, hey dad... can we talk?"

Ladies and Gentlemen we got some Smalls and Mattia action😌I'll try to update tomorrow if I don't spam me and force me to. ty😎