1980's / mattia polibio

.25

"Told me about what?" I state, sounding more worried than I would have liked.

"Well, how exactly should I put this. Not to long ago, your boyfriend made out with me. Yeah, it was great, and it was getting pretty intense until he had to pull away. But he is an amazing kis-"

Her sentence was cut short by my fist coming into contact with her face. Her head was thrown back and she collapsed onto the floor. Blood was trickling from her lip but I wasn't focused on her at the moment.

I had my eyes shut and back turned from her. Slow breaths left my nose as I was trying to calm myself. "Lexi, leave now before I do something I'll regret."

Without hesitation she left, shocked. All that was heard now, was her fading footsteps and her quiet sobs as she left.

My eyes were still shut but I could still tell all eyes were trained on me. "Please...Please tell me she's lying."

"Natalia-" Mattia tried to talk.

"Guys can you leave us alone and go back to your houses" I cut off, eyes open now.

"Are you sure because we c-" Kairi began to counter.

"Go!" I slightly yelled.

With that, the boys got their stuff and walked away, not daring to continue on with the conversation.

"I am going to ask you again Mattia. Is she lying?"

"I can tell yo-"

"ANSWER THE QUESTION!" I screamed annoyed.

"no."

The two-lettered response was enough to break me completely. My heart instantly felt as if it had dropped to my stomach. There was an obvious ache where it should be. The pain was something I have never experienced. It was terrible. I wanted it to go away. I wanted it to disappear so I could actually allow words to escape my mouth. I stood there, in front of him, looking like I had seen a ghost. I tried to speak but only small inaudible noises came from me. Tears began to sting at my eyes, almost like it was painful to cry. I fell to my knees and allowed the tears escape. Hands in my face, I sit on the floor slowly breaking down.

Mattias POV:

"ANSWER THE QUESTION!"

"no" is all I managed to say.

I watched as realization appeared on her face but it was soon masked by sadness. She looked as if her whole world had been destroyed. It was painful for me to watch. I stand idly by, looking at the girl I care for deeply, slowly crumble in front of me. She falls to her knees and allows the tears, I know she's been fighting to keep in, fall down. My own tears start to fall at the sight of her broken. I hate it. I hate myself for it. I start to see her try her hardest to compose herself. She wiped away the tears, all though it was useless because they continued to stream down, and stood up. She was shaking slightly and I could see her forming a sentence.

"Was I not good enough."

I let myself cry after she says this. She was good enough. She was way too good for me. I never meant to inflict this pain onto her. "No, no, you are perfect. I'm so sorry" I try to softly place my hand on her shoulder.

She throws it off in rage.

"How long have you been hiding it from me?"

"about a month" I honestly say, not wanting to lie to her any longer.

Natalia's POV:

A month?

That can't be. That's when...

"But that's how long we've been dating."

He stayed silent, eyes trained to the floor. I couldn't tell if I was overcome by sadness or rage. All of a sudden I lifted my hand and slapped him across the face.

"You have been LYING to my face everyday we have been dating. You were lying every hug, conversation, every kiss. How could you? I gave you my trust and I was vulnerable with you, in a way I have never been with anyone before. Your right, I am good enough. Way too good to be with you."

He was full blown crying at this point, and so was I. He said in between sobs, "I don't know what I was doing. We had barely gotten together and it all happened so fast. She pressured me and wouldn't leave me alone. I tried to leave so many times, but she pinned me down. I realized it wasn't you and I pulled away."

"Is that supposed to make me feel better? There is no excuse for what you did!" I took a deep breath trying to calm down but my anger soon came back after thinking about everything. "My god! You questioned me. Told me I was acting different in a bad way when you were lying to me. Made me think that something was wrong with me! You took me on a date and managed to kiss me all while knowing you had kissed another girl when we were dating. You are a lying cheater and I want you to leave me alone from here on out."

"Natalie you have to understand, I care about you so much. I never meant to hurt you and I never will again."

"You won't have the chance to. If it wasn't clear before, we're done."

I stomped off, attempting to dry my tears but it was no use. More just continued to leave my eyes. I ran home as fast as I could.

I twisted the doorknob open and walked into the house that was just as dark as the black sky outside. I walk to the kitchen and turned on the light. The bright light revealed that there was nothing made for me considering my parents weren't home. I looked into the fridge and decided to make myself a sandwich. My face was stained with dry tears and I was numb. It stayed the same, no emotion could be found.

I walked up the stairs with my food and opened the door to my room. I placed the sandwich on my desk and began to take off my shoes and socks. I made my way to the bathroom, taking off my clothes and not bothering to lock the door since no one was home. I undressed myself and turned on the shower. While waiting for it to get hot, I was taken back to the memories of today. Letting myself be free of my tough appearance, I break down again. I got into the shower when warm and sat underneath the steaming water that disguised my tears. I cried and didn't stop, unless I needed to grab shampoo/conditioner or body wash. I stood up washing myself and grabbing my toothbrush, along with toothpaste.

I stepped out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around me and red eyes from crying nearly all day long. I stepped into my room, closing the door behind me. The pain where my heart is, still comes back every one in awhile and it brings memories along with it. Did I do something wrong? Is there something wrong with me? I pushed the thoughts away, not wanting to cry again.

I sat on my bed after I threw on some pajamas. I left the sandwich on the counter after I realized I lost my appetite. I got up once more to turn the light off and crawled under the covers of my bed. I laid on my pillow as one last tear slipped down my cheek. I closed my eyes shut as I drifted off into sleep.

Mattia's POV:

I watched her storm off in rage. I was still crying as I ran home. Nobody has ever affected me the way she did. It was never my intention to hurt her. I love her, even if she doesn't know it. I made a mistake, a huge one. I just wanted to act like it never happened because I never meant for it to. I just want to start over with her. I want to hold her and tell her how much she means to me, but I can't. It hurts me that I hurt her and I would do anything to take it back.

I dragged myself to my bedroom and managed to brush my teeth. I was too tired to take a shower. I skipped dinner due to the state I'm in. I slumped into my bed and laid down with the blankets covering me. I thought back to all the times I was with her. I might have only been together with her for a month but it feels like its been a year. I want to be with her, but I know what I did, and it has consequences. I'll wait for her. However long it may take.

Authors note: poor smalls :( Comment some ideas for a new story I may start soon. (I'll still be continuing this one)