Starting Over

40. Johnny Needs To Chill

The look on Jackson's face is priceless. "Ella, if you don't mind, can I speak to Jackson please?" Dr Brown asks.

"No, of course," I get up from my chair and head towards the door. I leave the office and sit in the chair closest to the office as I wait for them to finish.

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JACKSON'S POV

I've never been so nervous for anything in my life than I am now. It's been a whirlwind of a day and this just tops it off.

"So, did the plan work? Are you two all sorted?" Dr Brown chuckles.

"Yeah we're good! Thanks for your help though, I appreciate it," I say with my leg bouncing up and down.

Earlier today, I had called Dr Brown begging for her help. I asked if she could convince Ella to keep her appointment so that way I could come and we could sort out what had happened this morning. When Dr Brown had agreed I knew there was a low chance that I wouldn't be able to see Ella.

"I'd do anything for that girl," me too Doctor. "Anyways, let talk about what you're really here for." I swallow hard. "I'm going to say it straight out, Ella is going to be in a lot pain for the first few times but I don't want that to make you guys not have sex." She explains.

"Ella, has sort of told me why she'll be in so much pain but are you able to explain it properly?" I ask quietly. Dr Brown take her glasses off her and stands up out of her chair. She walks around her desk and leans her back side on it so she is directly in front of me. 

Dr Brown crosses her arms over her chest. "This information I'm going to tell you will trigger your anger so please contain yourself," I nod my head for her to carry on. "Brayden didn't only insert his penis he also inserted his fingers. Now, due to him being so forceful and rough he damaged her nerve endings and the tissue in her vagina which can sometimes heal after long period of time or it can never heal. Ella, hasn't completely healed but she definitely will, it just takes a time and after today's check up it could be sooner than we think." She pauses, watching me intently. "Those pills that Ella is on, they are a major part of the healing process because without them she could get all sorts of infections. She won't be on them for the rest of her life but they may come and go from time to time." I nod my head again, taking in all this information. 

"So, when we are having sex, what can I expect?" I ask.

"There's not too much to expect besides Ella being in pain. If you see blood stop immediately, it can be normal that girls bleed when they have sex but with Ella's circumstances bleeding can mean that something that is currently healing has been damaged so you need to make sure you keep an eye on that. Now for you, you'll have to be slow when you enter Ella, if you're too fast you could tear the tissue and then thats where the bleeding can start. You also need to make sure you don't pull out too fast either and you must not cum inside of her as that can cause an infection." I take in all the information as thoroughly as possible.

The thought of Ella being in so much pain during something so pleasurable makes my anger rise. "I'm going to bring Ella back in and then there are a few things I need to talk about with the both of you." I mumble okay before she walks out of her office.

Ella walks back in the office and runs a hand through my hair as she walks towards the chair next to me. "Babe, you look like you're gonna pass out," she says laughing. She sits down and so does Dr Brown.

Dr Brown is pressing buttons on her computer before the printer on the other side of the office makes noises. "I wrote out the information you both need to know. Please read it and talk about it with each other before having sex. I need you guys to be completely ready and I want you to understand everything that could happen and will happen." She hands the booklet to Ella before walking back to her desk and sitting down. "Now, Ella, I have told Jackson the most concerning things he needs to know and all the minor things are in the booklet." Ella responds with okay. 

Ella leans over to grab my hand. Her touch relaxes me as Dr brown starts speaking again. "Do you have any questions or concerns before you leave?" I feel as though I have lots of things to say but I can't bring myself to say them with all the information I'm still trying to process. Ella looks over at me, she raises an eyebrow as if thats her way of asking if i have anything else to say. 

"No, I'm all good, I think" I say. Dr Brown stands up and walks over to the door. 

"Alrighty, guys, thats it for today." Ella and I both stand up still holding each others hand. "If you need me just call and if anything and I mean anything happens ring me straight away," she says. 

We stop at the door. "Of course! We'll go through the book tonight and have a chat." Dr nods her head before pulling Ella in for a hug.

"I'm so proud of you, girly. If you need anything, I'm only a phone call away." She lets go of Ella holding her forearms.

Ella nods, "Of course," Dr Brown lets go of Ella and pulls me in for a hug.

"It was nice to meet you, Jackson."

"Yeah, you too," I respond as we pull away from each other. 

"You take good care of her, okay?" she says pointing her finger at Ella.

"I'll always take care of, Ella, no matter what." I say with complete honesty. Dr Brown responds with good before we all say our goodbyes and leave the office but not before calls out,

"Ella make sure you do a wee straight after." 

Ella and I walk towards our cars hand in hand not saying a word. We stop at our cars and look at each other. "How are you coping, love?" She asks as she strokes my cheek.

"It's a lot to take in but it doesn't change anything," I reassure her. "And, I am really sorry about this morning. I never ever wanted you to see that side of me, I remind myself too much of my dad and it pains me to think that you're dating someone who has traits of a toxic man," I say grabbing both her hands and kissing them. 

"Jackson, you'll never be your dad and there isnt an ounce of you that is him." She looks me dead in the eyes with sparkling blue eyes and scrunched eyebrows. "I forgive you Jackson, it was a mistake, we all make them and I'm sure there is going to be a lot more along the way," she sweetly smiles at me.

She stand on her tippy toes as she places her soft sweet lips on mine for a little peck. "Is that all I'm getting?" I smirk. She lets go of my hands and spins around towards the door of her car. 

She giggles. "You can have more later," she winks and gets into her car. I make it my cue to get in my Ute and start the journey home. 

Before I start driving Ella pulls her window indicating for me to do the same. Once my windows down Ella begins to speak. "I'll see you at home, baby." She winks again before driving out of the parking lot. I follow behind the whole way home.

Johnny needs to chill!