Starting Over

19. I Need Sunglasses

Jacksons POV

Her smile.

Her laugh.

Her crystal blue eyes.

Her little freckles that decorate her face in the most unique way.

Her small hand intertwined in mine.

Her long gorgeous brown hair that covers her face when she blushes.

There is not one bit of her that I don't love.

She is the person I love.

Ella is who I want to spend the rest of my life with.

She is my happiness,

And she is MY blossom.

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I turn my head and there she is, asleep with her mouth slightly open. What a cutie! I fidget a little in my bed, making a bit of noise. Ella wakes up in a fright.

"Jackson you're awake! No! This is a dream, it has to be. Are you even real?" She asks closing her eyes every few seconds making sure this isn't a dream, making me chuckle.

"Yes blossom, I'm awake and I'm alive," I reply.

She jumps onto me and engulfs me into a hug. "I'm so so sorry Jackson, it was all my fault. Its okay if you hate me because I would hate me too if I were you. I will leave you alone forever I promise, I won't come near you ever again." She rambles pulling away. I wish she just stayed there, to be honest.

"Why in the world would I hate you, especially you?" I ask. Ella covers her face with her hair letting me know that she's blushing.

"Because you could've died!" She yelled out.

"But I didn't die, I'm still here. I could never hate you, you do realise that don't you?" I ask, trying to reassure myself.

"I thought you did when I first moved here," She states.

"Not at all," I deny. She giggles and stares at me with that breathtaking smile.

"What are you thinking about Blossom?" Ella snaps out of her gaze and turns bright red.

"You," Ella replies.

"Oh really?" She nods, "About what exactly?" I ask, again.

"How you scared the shit out of me!" She yells slapping my arm lightly. I couldn't help but smile at her. "I have had the worst two months of my life, Jackson. You have no idea how hard it was for me. I didn't leave this chair once since you got in here," she explains.

"Are you for real?" I ask, shock filled in my voice.

"Yep." She says popping out the 'p' more than necessary but its Ella that I'm talking to so it doesn't bother me.

"Thank you, Ella, for everything," I pause for a brief second to grab her hands. "You have changed my life a lot. Ever since we meet, we have both had some troubles but here we are closer than ever and I couldn't be happier. I really appreciate it." I look down at our hands and back up at her eyes.

"I'm just glad you're okay, Jackson," she says. "I'm going to get your mum and sister and find a nurse, I'll be back." I nod in response.

Ella leaves the room and that's when thoughts and questions come rushing through.

I should have told her how I felt. Now that I haven't told her, I'm going to have to wait. I have to wait for a doctor to tell me what's wrong and all that bullshit. Then mum and Charlotte and probably Ella's brothers are going to come in and all I want right now is to just have Ella in my arms.