Her Silent Cries

Chapter 45

Jays pov
Wait what how is this possible no it's not possible she can't be here I mean maybe I'm mistaken plus her hair and her eyes are different okay the eyes I can tell that it's contact lenses but no this can't be her
Me:Hey
???:I'm sorry about my daughter yana baby come here
Me:Uhm it's okay
I'm tongue tied I don't know what to say I know for a fact that it's her but I'm not sure this is mind fucking how can I be sure and not sure at the same time she picks up amariyana but as she's about to walk away her scent hits me now I know it's definitely her
Me:Nonie?
She freezes for a while and continues walking
Me:Nonie is it you ?
She turns around and looks at me
???:I'm sorry you've mistaken me for someone else
Me:Oh oh I'm sorry you have a really cute baby btw
???:Huh and she looks just like you
And just like that she walks out of the store I stand there still trying to process everything wait what but no she's dead she's dead.I hurry out the store and yell her name again but there's no sign of her
Me:Ah fuck I can't be losing it again I'll just drink my meds when I get home
I pay for Octavias stuff and drive back home trying not to think about her before I lose my mind.
Nonies POV
Jay:Nonie
I froze he recognized me I mean of course he would this man worshipped my body he knows me all too well.I know I was gonna bump into him but I didn't think it would be so soon I mean he caught me off guard the moment I went to check on yana and found her talking to this annoymous man I was ready to flip out but then he looked up and it was him.He still smells the same and his still in shape looking sexy as ever I wonder how the kids are but I can't ask him that I know after my death he went on psychotic pills for awhile so I'll just have to make him think this was all an illusion and he needs to go back on his pills he didn't actually see me
Jay:Nonie is it you?
I turn around and look at him
Me:No I'm sorry you've mistaken me for someone else
Jay:Oh oh(His expression changes he looks confused now) I'm sorry you have a really cute baby btw
Me:huh and she looks just like you
I walk out of the store leaving him there and head towards the entrance
Yana:Mommy!!!!Ice-cream
Me:Yana we'll get it somewhere else okay
She frowns and I just ignore her I don't have time for her spoiled ass right now I buckle her up and we drive off.
Jays Pov
I arrive home still thinking about her yep I'm definitely losing my mind now I drink two pills not shortly after 2 mins I start feeling normal again
Me:Family !!
Xavier comes down the stairs looking all types of handsome
Me:Uhm where you going young man
Xavier:To meet a friend I'll be back dad
He gives a side hug and stares at me
Me:What
Xavier:Nothing you just happen to smell like mom but it's a very faint scent kinda like she was in your presence
Me:(Frowning) oh wel..(He cuts me off)
Xavier:Anyway bye dad I'll be back before 8
He walks out and closes the door
"You just happen to smell like mom" huh I brush that thought off and head up to Octavias room
Me:Hey buddy look what daddy got you
Octavia:(smiling) Thank you daddy you the best
Me:So how was school ?
Octavia:Great actually there was a new kid at school today she just joined and I had to show her around and daddy you know what's funny
Me:What ?
Octavia:(smiling) She looks just like (cracking up)
Me:Nobody looks like me except you I mean you don't even look like me you just resemble me
Octavia:Well you should really meet her then and you'll see what I'm talking about(smiling)
Me:Huh I guess I should I'll pick you up tomorrow then you can show me her
Octavia:Okay pops
I walk out of his room and head downstairs to make myself a smoothie
Priscilla:Oh hey you back
Me:Yea
Priscilla:Whats wrong
Me:(inner thoughts "you happen to smell like mom."  "She looks just like you") uhm no no nothing is wrong (faking a smile) come here I missed you come give me a kiss
She leans in and kisses me but I pull back I don't know why but I just did
Priscilla:Babe are you sure everything is fine
Me:Actually I'll be back don't wait up
I head off to the warehouse
Me:Hey guys
Guys:Boss you look down ? wassup
Me:Uhm nothing any latest news and where's Thabo
Guys:Uhm we lost 3 of our clients to Black
Me:huh yea uhm I'll get back to that I'm just not in the right headspace right now
I head to my office and open the door to find Thabo drinking my whiskey
Me:And who made you boss ?
Thabo:(chuckling)It's been awhile how you doing
Me:Tbh I don't know mahn I swear today I saw Nonie and the kids the kids mahn Xavier told me that He can smell her scent off my scent Octavia told me there's a new kid at his school and she looks just like me today I bumped into a kid that looks just like me and a woman that appears to be Nonie but I'm just not sure I even drank my pills thinking I'm going crazy again man
Thabo:hmm you probably stressed out go hit the bar okay
Me:Hmm good idea
I head out to the one place I know serves the best whiskey.
Nonies POV
When we get home I drop yana off and head out to fetch my package the guy told me to meet him at some secluded bar
I walk inside and we exchange the money and the package then I decide to head over to the bar I need a shot a lot happened today
Me:Bartender
???:I'm definitely going crazy
I turn to my side and jay is sitting there.