Her Silent Cries

Chapter 33

Nonies POV (Finally!!!)
When he walks out the room I stand up and go freshen up I can't wait to see my baby Xavier I missed him so much I'm pretty sure his hair is a mess.His probably the only human being I'll be able to properly conversate with because I have to be strong for him I won't lie I'm not coping at all I despise jay he knew very well what kind of business he was in and still continued a relationship with me he put me and my baby at risk.I endured so much pain the rape was probably the worst.There was no fight left in me anymore but I won't allow what happened to me to stop me from living I'll recover I just need Xavier to give me strength but as for Jay his a constant reminder of that night I can't bare to look at him.Im just really glad that Aurora is still alive and healthy I'm on   2 months now and it's been hell I can't wait to give birth and I don't think I'm ready to face the media anytime soon I'll handle everything when I get home.I start packing my bags and sit on the hospital bed looking out the window it gives me a sense of security that's why I'm always looking at it.
Jays Pov
I arrive at Nonies place and collect Xavier and we drive off to the hospital
Xavier:Daddy hows mommy
Me:She's okay she's just excited to see you
Xavier:Granny told me she's in the hospital
Me:Yea yea she is
Xavier:Is Xavier the 2nd fine
Me:(Laughing)Yes you know I would never allow anything to hurt my family
He looks at me and smiles then stares out the window counting all the blue cars that passed by leaving me in my own thoughts.Have I lost Nonie I mean I can't lose her she's my wife she was made for me and it wasn't my intention for her to get mixed up in this business I'll just keep checking up on her I'll use the baby as an excuse to still be in her life but right now the best thing to do is to actually give her space.I pull over and park my car then get out walking hand in hand with Xavier
Xavier:Let's buy her McFlurry dad it's her favorite
Me:(Smiling)okay lets go
After getting Nonie and Xavier Ice cream we head to her ward and we find her sitting in the same position I left her in
Xavier:Mommy!!!!!
She turns around and her eyes are filled with tears as she smiles and picks up Xavier
Nonie:Hello little bunny missed me ?(Smiling)
She looked so happy
Me:Uhm I'll give you guys some space
Nonie:Please take us home I'm done packing
I take the bags and give them some time together they walk out of the hospital hand in hand She really looks happy I find myself smiling at her
Nonie:please unlock the car
Me:Oh yea sorry
I open the door for her to get in and she gets in and Xavier decides to sit on her lap
We drive off and we arrive at her place and I open the door she holds my hand it's been awhile since I felt her touch I look at her not breaking eye contact until she looks down
Nonie:Thanks for the ride
Me:Sure
Nonie:Xavier baby cmon get mommys bag and let's go inside
Me:You don't need help
Nonie:You weren't there to save me so why would I need your help now
I look at her in disbelief I never thought she would take it there we both hurting so I don't know why she has to act this way but I'll let her be cause I'm not the one who experienced it
She walks off with Xavier and I drive off
Nonies POV
I walk in my house home sweet home and I can smell my mother's scent already
Me:The mother(Smiling)
Her:Mtana ka mama(Mommys baby)sit down let me make you food I'm sure you tired neh just relax my baby
I allow her to pamper me then go up to my room I freshen up and burn the clothes they raped me in then sit on the bed and just meditate
Xavier:Knock Knock
Me:(Smiling)your already in
Xavier:Mommy can you do my hair
Me:Sure come here
I start by untangling his hair because no one bothered to braid my baby's hair and this is what I was avoiding
Xavier:Ouch!!
Me:Sorry(Giving him kisses all over his face)okay I'm done you welcome Travis
Xavier:Dankie San(Thank you boy)
Me:(Laughing)And where did you learn that
Xavier:Daddy
Me:Oh really and what else did you learn
Xavier:This(picking up my pillows and throwing them everywhere while screaming fuck)
Me:(Eyes wide open)No way daddy taught you that
Xavier:I saw him doing it that time you weren't at home
Me:Huh well don't ever do that again okay pumpkin it's bad daddy wasn't in his right mind
Xavier:Okay mommy(Making a pouty face)
Me:Now give me a kissy
He laughs and gives me kisses all over my face and runs out of my room I turn on my phone and messages instantly flood my phone I have so many missed calls I disappear for 3 days and the world can't cope.I put my phone on the nightstand I'll check those later right now I wanna relax my thoughts are disturbed by my phone ringing
Phone call******
Me:Jay
Jay:Hey I was just calling to check up on you guys
Me:We perfectly fine and don't ever swear or lose it infront of Xavier okay
Jay:Oh yeah I'm sorry it was that day they took you I'm sorry
Me:Whatever tomorrow is his first day at school you can come over if you don't wanna miss the moment
Jay:I wouldn't miss it for the world
Me:okay bye
Jay:I love you
I hang up and close my eyes.I hate the fact that things had to end this way to think I saw a future with this guy