Her Silent Cries

Chapter 35

He slowly pulls down my pants as the other guy continuously slaps me I feel blood running down my nose as he roughly enters me leaving me out of breathe I feel my walls closing in and I'm 2 seconds away from a blackout when I hear a voice Nonie Nonie.I wake up and find jay shaking me
Jay:You okay it was just a dream relax
Me:(I stare at him and the flashbacks come back)Take me home
Jay:What's wrong now this baby must come out now because I can't deal with your moods
Me:You just don't get it do you ?
Jay:What do you mean?
Me:Jay you are a constant reminder of that night you failed me your the reason why I'll never be the same again your the reason why I am still scared to face the outside world a part of me wishes the baby died to put you through the pain I went through.I will never forgive you for what happened to me not now not ever I despise you.You lied to me you endangered us all what if they took Xavier instead huh? you clearly don't care about us Jay why the fuck are you still following me around like some love sick puppy leave me alone I need to recover we will find a way to co-parent but I just can't do this Jay(Breaking down)I'm broken I know I act like I'm fine but deep down I'm dead the only reason I still wake up everyday with a smile on my face is because of Xavier right now he is my pillar of strength if it wasn't for him I would've committed suicide because I'm not okay Jay I'm emotionally scarred to.Im damaged as we stand I hate the fact that I'm carrying your baby I just can't stand you Jay
Jays Pov
I stand there shocked I don't know what to say so this is how Nonie really feels about me I guess I should just let her go
Me:(Staring into her eyes)Let me take you home
Nonie:Where's Xavier?
Me:In the next room I'll go get him I'll find you in the car
Nonie:Okay sure
Me:Nonie..At the end of the day I found you.I spent everyday in that hospital I watched you turn mute I watched you cry and I saw everything that happened I watched my future wife get raped infront of me so I'm just as broken but I understand I'll leave you alone I'll stop calling your house can I have Xavier on the weekends and I'll see you in that labour ward and the least you can do is allow me to be there with you when you give birth
I leave her standing there and go fetch Xavier we get in the car and I drop them off and head to the club that's the perfect place to distress and I definitely need some pussy therapy
I make my way inside club kisses and start ordering shots when a fine ass lady sits next to me she's round in all the right places she's just gorgeous
Her:Heartbreak?
Me:Is it that obvious
Her:(Laughing)Yea you look fucked
Me:Pshh (Stretches out my hand)Jay
Her:Melinda
Me:Nice to meet you Melinda
We have a flowing conversation and one thing led to another.
I woke up next morning and Melinda is by my side
Me:Ahh(Holding my head)Wtf happened yesterday
Her:We fucked hard for that matter
Me:Yea uhm you need to leave
She picks up her clothes and leaves her numbers before she heads out I go downstairs to make myself a cup of coffee while waiting for the kettle I decide to check social media and what I see makes me come to a complete halt
Nonies POV
I wake up and decide to finally check my social media I've been MIA for way to long I gotta get my life back on track I start going through it when I come across pictures of Jay and some girl she's very pretty and I'm guessing they were at Jays house because they in bed and they look real comfy I check who posted the snap and her handle is Melinda.SA okay well I don't know how to feel now I still love Jay I didn't really expect him to jump into bed with another girl so soon anyway I'm not gonna stress myself out it's not good for the baby I put my phone down and go drink water before heading out to the gym
Me:Ausi Mavis
Ausi:Yes
Me:Please make sure Xavier is done by the time his driver arrives
Ausi:Okay madam bye
I drive out in my G-Wagon and head to Virgin active I have a steamy work out session I should've went easy on myself I tend to forget I'm pregnant sometimes
Him:You pushing 7 months now neh?
I look up and my eyes meet this caramel beauty
His basketball tall with the perfect body and Chinese like eyes let's not get started on his smile
Me:Uhm yea
Him:Oh ugh where are my manners I'm lubonke Dr lubonke for that matter
Me:Oh (smiling)Nice to meet you doc I'm Nonie
Lubonke:If you don't mind me asking where's the dad
Me:Dead anyway uhm I should get going
Lubonke:Can I atleast get your tens I need a new gym partner
Me:Right
I give him my numbers and head out I'm surprised there are guys outchea intrested in pregnant woman