Cut Too Deep

Cut Too Deep [Part 3]

NEXT MORNING
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After what happened upstairs between me and Justin last night, nothing could
bring me down not even my mom, or Natalie, or Missy.
Not even the fact that i woke up to a text from Penelope  telling me she no longer wanted to be friends, and that she has been telling all her little friends my secrets.
Yay!
I dont care its fine with me. Beacause i know i have Justin now.
I use to feel so sad and so broken but now i feel alive.
I was able to snag some Flyleaf tickets online a few weeks ago
and their concert was tomorrow night. I couldnt wait!
I even got back stage passes. I wanted to meet Lacey, the lead vocalist
for the longest time. I wanted to tell her that because her
songs it is what has helped me through everything.
Even saved my life.

I wrap up in a few blankets and walk down stairs.
"Hey ugly." Natalie says snickering.
"Hey dumb a­ss." i shoot back with a smile.
She scoffs and looks at me wide eyed as if to say
How Dare you!
i have never stood up to Natalie or mom but now is the
day i put all that disrepect to a end.
"What did you just say." she says blinking multiple times, mouth open.
"You heard me." i say grabbing some yogurt and sitting down at the table.
"Mom! MOM! LINDA! MOM GET IN HERE!" Natalie screams.
"What!" my mom says emerging from her cave, she calls a room. All she
does is drink and stay in her room.
"Ellen just called me a dumb a­ss." my sister whined.

"Anndd.." my mom says.
Usually she stands up for Natalie.
I stare at her. She seemed completely sober to me.
"Mom.." she says gasping.
"Oh gosh stop whining your so annoying! Im tired of you" my mom shrieked.
yes! This was the mom i knew and loved. This is the
mom i wanted to see all those years.
"Hey, Ellen while your down here can you go to the store im out." she says.
I feel a pang in my stomach just to make sure i ask what she is talking about.
"What are you out of?" i ask slowly.
Me and my sister stare at her waiting for her response.
If she says alcohol then her and Natalie will be back to normal tortuing me.
but i pray its anything but that.

"Milk of course, silly. Ohh i see. You thought i was going to say alcohol. Im happy to announce that i have official been sober for the past 3 hours."
I chuckle. Wow but that was progress.
"I never want to go down that road again. While sitting in my room i came across some old family photos and realized im the reason why this family, is dysfunctional. Im the reason your dad left. and Ellen. I know im the reason why your always so depressed. im sorry." she says walking over to me and embracing me into a big bear hug.

I cant believe it. I havent hugged my mom in at least 8 years.
Let alone had a decent conversation with her.
Im glad whatever got into her did. I think i can like this change.
I dont know i think that kiss from Justin changed everything around me.
Like it was the key to unlocking happiness in my life its weird.
I climb out of the chair and chunk the money at Natalie.
"Why are you giving me this. She said you!' she complained.
Well my head still hurts i dont think i can go. i say patting my head.
"ugh whatever."
She prances around the counter to get the keys but i snatch them before she can get them.
"Walk." i demand. a glint of satisfaction in my eyes.

"Give me those" she shouts.
"Karama's a bi­tch aint it?" i say.
Me and my mom crack up!
Oh how i miss that laugh, of hers. I missed those big bear hugs and
sloppy kisses she use to give. oh how i missed the smell of sweet
talcum and lemon in her clothes.
oh how much i missed my mother and im glad she's back.
Natalie huffs and puffs and cur­ses under her breath at
how she's going to get me back and blah blah blah.
I was to concerned in having my mom back than to pay attention to her

After Natalie left, i went upstairs to my room and prepared for school.
Instead of looking so gloomly like. I decided to wear something
I dont know. whats that word Missy's always saying.
Ahh. Cute, or Hot.
I giggle.
I gently peel the bandage from around my head and rest in on the counter
and hop into the shower. I wash my hair and soap up.
To rinse off i just stood under the water. letting in pour down
on my face and into my eyes, like rain. I didnt
care, it felt good.
I swtiched of the shower and wrapped up into a towel and made my way to my room.

"Got a secret can you keep it swear this one you'll save
better lock it in your pocket taking this one to the grave
if i show you then i konw you wont tell what i said
cause two can keep a secret if one of them is dead."
my phone chirped the theme song of my favorite
tv show. Pretty Little Liars.
I rush over to it and see who it was.
It was Justin.
"We need to talk." it read.
"Okay. Wen?" i reply
"At lunch, meet me in the corridors." He replied a minute later.
I snapped my phone shut and went to my closet
This couldnt be good.
i proceed picking out a outfit.

I grabbed a baby blue, dress that my grandma bought for my birthday. i also grabbed my leggings and some ballerina flats.
I tied my hair up into a bun and tied a white ribbon around it.
I picked up the lipstick i stole from my sister. It was a soft
pink, and coated it with clear lipgloss.
I put on a nice cool colored eyeshadow and i was ready to go.
No one was going to recogonize me.
I practiced walking around with my head up and being confident. When
i crossed the full lefnth mirror i have, I hardly use it I try not to look at myself that often unless
i had too, i stared at the reflection staring back at me.

She was truly beautiful.
wow. i never called myself that before. It felt weird.
I broke away from my gaze and grabbed my coat.
I walked down stairs to my mom's room.
"Bye, mom im leaving for school." i say.
She smiles big and wide.
"Have a nice day sweety." she says cooly.
Sweety. That made me smile.
"Thanks mom. " i say walking away.
I practically skip down to my bus stop and wait for the bus.