Cut Too Deep

Cut Too Deep [part 4]

I sit on the bench and listen to my Ipod. I decide to play Set Apart This Dream.
By Flyleaf. I sang the words as they entered my ears.
"Close your eyes pretty girl ,You’re a princess now
You own this world
Twirling in your twirly dress
You’re the loveliest far above the rest"
This song always made me feel pretty, and like a princess.
I was really getting into the song when Missy, came walking
down the pavement.
Ooh look! She got new heels. There still ugly.
I shrug.

I can see somebody treading behind her but i cant really make out who.
Once they get closer i see Penelope following her like
a lost puppy. Pathetic.
"Do you really think you look cute?" Missy says disgusted.
I looked down at myself and stand up so that we are only inches apart.
"Yes, actually i do." i say.
"Well your not." she says laughing with penelope then they do this
little thing with their fingers.
WTH
"Haha, your funny come up with something new.please. surprise me." i say
blandly.
She rolls her eyes.
"Whatever freak emo girl. Thats why Pellie here told me everything
about you. i know all your secrets." she says.
Penelope nods and stares at me.
"Wow penelope" i say pushing past Missy.

"I really thought you were my friend." i say staring at her.
"Really? well i never really liked you. I mean Missy told me to
hang around you so we could tortue you later. haha well it worked." she laughed.
"Your really pathetic you know that. Following Missy around like you
dont have a mind of your own. Oh wait. you dont. My mistake." i say
Then i turn to Missy.
"Your real pathetic to. I mean look at your self. Dressing up all slutty so guys can notice you. Maybe if you opened a book instead of your legs you'll get some respect." i spit.
She gasps.
"Oh no you didnt, mrs. i have never even kissed a guy." She says
matter of factly.
"Actually i have thank you very much." i say proudly.
She just stares at me and pouts.
I think she gets the point that i am not backing down so easy like i use to.

"Well you put the ick in picky, and you put the asty in nasty, and
you put the emo in emo.. Wait."
"Wow your dumb," i say twisting on my heel and walking toward the bus.
She just stood there big eyed and open mouthed.

Once i got on the bus, all the talking stopped and everyone
stared at me.
I just sat in my regular seat. I could hear whispers and peoples
eyes burning in the back of my head.

I just continue to listen to my music and act like everything is normal.
Once we arrive at school and i walk through the main hall
everyone stops. Just like on the bus.
All eyes shift to me. Okay, that is starting to get annoying,the whole stop and stare thing.
I slowly walk through the hall books clenched tightly to my chest and keep my head up. It was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.
"Confidence is key." i whisper to myself.
"Confidence is key."
I keep walking when i hear a voice reaching out to me.
"You look awesome." Melanie, our class president said.
And i think she meant it, i couldnt find a hint of sarcasm or anything in her voice.

And she hardly gives compliments.
People around her start to agree.
I try to speak but i cant. Nobody has even said i looked OKAY before.
"Uhm, aha thanks." i say.
Slowly the buzz of voices return as my 5 minutes of fame ended.
I pull up to my locker and drop my things off in there.
I can officially say that today was going to be great.