Cut Too Deep

Cut Too Deep[Part15]

Justin drops me off. I dont notice how tired i am until i collapse on my bed.
I sigh and go over the events that just happened in my head.
I was super hungry but i didnt feel like getting up to make anything.
I just laid there letting the smell and taste of Justin linger on me.

I was about to change into my pajamas when i heard knocking on my door.
"Who is it?"
"Dad."
I freeze, i dont know if i should let him in.
"J-just one second" i say.
I quickly change into my Pj's and instead of getting in my bed i sit at my computer desk.
"Come in."
He comes in and sits on my bed.
If he is thinking about giving me the talk or something like that i was not about to listen.
"Hey so who was that boy outside."
ugggggghhhhhhhhhh
"Justin." i say.
"Ohh Justin, arent you guys like really good friends?" he says trying to make conversation.
"Yep." but i dont want to talk so i keep my answers short and sweet.

He makes this twisted expression.
"Well if you guys are friends why were you kissing at the door?" he asked.
"Daaadddd. please." i say i really didnt feel like talking about it.
"Okay okay. I jsut came up here to say goodnight." he says standing up trying to give me a hug.
I gulp and hug him back.
He leaves the room and i let out a huge breath.

SCHOOL
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After getting off the bus i decided to just skip homeroom and first period. I wasnt really in the mood to learn history to day.
So in the time being i just went and chilled in the computer lab.
Justin is like a major computer techie, so somehow he downloaded COD: Black Ops on my flashdrive and i sat there for the whole hour and a half trying to ki­ll stuff.
I was so into the game that i didnt hear anybody calling my name.
"Take that." i say mking a explosion noise.
"Ellen." the voice said.
"And that!"
"ELLEN!"
"W-what.." i pause the game and look over to see Kimberly.
"Oh hey." i say.

"Now that i have your attention i wanted to know if you were still coming to my party tonight? Everybody whose anybody will be there!" she says excited.
I remember when i use to be a nobody.
"Aha cool. Yeah ill be there." i smile.
"Cool ok so here is my address party starts at 8 dont be late you can leave whenever you want to. My parents wont be home until like next weekend so its all good. Oh and one more thing just a warning there will be kegs and stuff. Do you know what that is?"
I use to be invisible, not stup­id.
"Yes!" i exclaim. she laughs and walks away.
I cant wait. My first highschool party it's gonna be a blast

The rest of the day went by in a blur, i was just so excited for the party tonight.
It was going to be awesome. I had to find a outfit, i had to figure out to do my hair. i started freaking out.
"calm down." i whisper to myself.
I knew i had to wear something long sleeved so my scars wouldnt show, but it was going to be so hot inside that house filled with all those people.

Then i got a brillant idea, or so i thought.
Since i wanted to wear a short sleeve shirt i could just buy spray on tan or something to cover up the scars.
Right in the middle of the hallway i start clicking my heels at this awesome idea.
Everyone around me is staring at me like i have lost my mind, but i cant contain my joy.
I click my heels all the way out of the school's front doors.

I start my way to the Fallon shopping center. Since it was Friday the school buses didnt run, so you had to find a ride.
i text Justin and tell him to meet me at the mall.
"Hey, are you going to Kim's party?" i text.
"Uh whose that, i didnt hear about a party." he replies.
Right, i forgot noone really tells Justin about these things.
"Nothing just meet me at Fallon in 15." i say.
"Okay." he replies.
I close my phone and toss it in my bag.