Cut Too Deep

Cut Too Deep [part 5]

LUNCH
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For the first time in oh i dont know the whole 3 years i've been in highschool.
i actually step foot into the cafeteria. I usually just bring a lunch
and eat in the bathroom or just stay in the computer lab but
i decided to try something new.
"One cheese sandwhich and some fries. please." i ask.
The hairy lunch lady grunts in reply.
"Herd yew go. Next"
I walk up to the register and pay for my food.
All of a sudden i realize i dont have anywhere to sit.
I keep a fake smile plastered on my face and walk around the lunch room for a empty table.
Finally i found one. I sat alone eating my cold fries.
"Bleck." i say spitting them back out.
I was about to go down on my cheese sandwhich when someone shouted my name.

"Yo Ellen!!" kimberly shouted.
We only had one class together im surprised she knew my name.
"yeah."
"Wanna come eat with us?" she asks waving me over.
I dont know about that one. I mean. She's the captain of
varsity cheerleading, so of course all the little snobby cheerleaders were eating
with her. There perfect little ponytails, and necklaces all in place.
They look just like trophy wives. All neat and what not.
"Uhm sure." i say gathering my food and walking over to there table.

Once i sit down they were all staring and smiling at me.
All 16 of them.
"So, i like totally love your dress, its super cute." Frankie, co captin said.
She was probably the only geniunely pretty girl i knew.
"Thanks. My gran.."
Wait act cool.
"i mean i bought it like last weekend." i lie.
"Totally awesome we should go shopping together." she says.
"uh sure." i half whisper.
Why is everyone being so nice to me something was up.
I decide to find the answer to my curiosity.

"Uhm. Why are you all of sudden being nice to me." i say staring up at everyone.
The table falls quiet.
Awwkkkwarddd.
Then one of the cheerleader's starts to laugh. Chelsea.
"answer the girl." she says playfully.
"Chelsea's right. Uhm i dont know its just something about you that changed
that seems more inviting and well we were curious." Kimberly confessed.
"oh." i say.
We continue to eat our lunch when i get a text.
It was from Justin.
Cra­p i completely forgot about him.
"Where are you?" it read.
"Im on my way now!" i replied.

"Sorry guys it was nice talking to all of you but i have to go now.
We can catch up later." i say waving and running out of the
cafeteria like a maniac. I round the corner and run straight for the corridors
past "G" hall.
I finally arrive to wear Justin is and place my back pack on the ground.
He is sitting on a small bench, only big enough to seat two
and listening to his ipod. His brown hair covering his eyes.
"Justin" i whisper stepping closer towards him.
He takes out his Ipod and taps the space next to him.
"Sit." he says with a soft tone.

I walk over to the bench and sit down next to him.
He stares at me and i see his eyes move down my whole body.
It made me feel all tingly inside.
"Uhmm. You look nice." he says looking me in the eyes.
"Thanks." i say.
Then silence.
"Well, okay this is what i wanted to say. Ellen. I love you. I mean as a friend. and i would love you as a girlfriend too but.. i just dont want things between
us to be anything less than what we are. You get what im trying to say?" He asks.
"yeah. i know what you mean. You dont want to date me because you dont
want to risk our friendship blah blah blah." i say disappointed.
He squints his eyes at me then takes my hands in his.
They are so warm and soft.

"Ellen. wouldnt it be for the best? i mean who knows what can happen
if we ever break up." he says sincerity in his voice.
"But we will never know unless we try what will happen. What if everything
is more than you expected? What if we STAY in love. And even if we do break up
i will always love you and you will always be my Tinny Poo!" i say
ruffling his hair.
We laugh and then get serious again.

"Ok." He says.
"Ok what?" i ask.
He stares at me then before i know it our lips are touching again
and i get the natural feeling i had when we were up in my room
only 24 hours ago.
We broke apart and rested our heads together.
"Okay to that." he said smiling.
I kissed him softly one more time and stood up.
"Your the best." i say grabbing my things.
"Haha i try." he says.
I laugh.
"Oh dont forget the Flyleaf concert is tomorrow." i say fishing
for the ticket in my back pack.

I chunk it at him and he smiles, as i disappear around the corner for 4th period.